I m glad that God had found me

I'm feeling very upset & unhappy

2008-01-20T04:40:00.000+08:00

As what captioned above, I felt sad, upset, unhappy for a very long long time. It seems that I could not even remember what is "Happiness" in life anymore. All things are not in place, my relationship with God is imbalance, my relationship with my family, friends and ultimately with my husband, Ivan is not on "good" terms. Guess it get worse when we start living together. It really get bad and bad each day. It hurts, it really do. But do anyone knows how I feel??? I do not think so. I'm not sure about God, but I do know that I'm terribly very upset. I'm used to be very cheerful, always bring laughter to my family and friends. Seeing them happy, I'm happy too. Now, I do not think I'm as optimtisc as before. That cheerful side of me had been disappear for too long that I could not even remember when it started. I'm just only 23 years old, what else you want me to do??? I'm slowly climbing the corporate ladder, studying part time, I'm still in the transaction period. And now, I'm married too. Have commitment to comply to, more responsibilities to come and so on. But please bear in mind that I'm still 23 years old. What else you want to do?? Come on... Girls at my age do not settle down so early. Mentally we are not there yet, most of my friends are either still in their university days or just about to step into working world. They do not have commitment to comply to. Furthermore, there's communication problem exists between me and Ivan, which I do not know how to solve it. Almost want to give up, is there anymore hope for me to look upon to??

Unfairness in my work

2007-06-29T09:14:00.000+08:00

I simply do not understand why people change its attitude immediately upon seeing your resignation letter?? Why is it so? My boss had been finding fault in me since last friday, which I could not accept. Hey, I did not do anything wrong to derserve such treatment from you, neither do you want to receive such treatmetn from someone else too. Simply NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to hand over my remaining job probably to my colleagues, why do you want to make my life so difficult? I do hope that people will change for the better not the other way round.

Everything's getting back to normal

2007-06-27T09:38:00.000+08:00

Good news for sharing.

Firstly, I got a job offer at Raffles Place which is next tower away from my hubby and the most splendid thing is the company is 5 minutes away from Singapore Accountancy Acadamy (SAA), City Campus, which I had enrolled in. Isn't it wonderful??? I'm blessed by Him.

Secondly, I have been going back to W.A.C for the past few weeks for service. It feels good. The fellowship that I had with my fellow sisters and brothers are wonderful. Everything seems the same to me, not much differences since I had left them for almost a year plus. Except there are few new faces which I did not see them before. Guess they came in when I left W.A.C.

Thirdly, I have "offically" moved into my new house at Sengkang. I love it so much. It is the biggest present that I have ever receive in my life. Thanks baby for making my dream home comes true. He has make a lot of effort to it. Oh well, we do quarrels a lot. But I guess is meaningful to relationship. Come to think about it, I can understand him better and appreciate him more after our quarrels. At times I had hurt him badly, which I feel very guilty about it. He is always forgiving towards me. *Love you Baby*

Forthly, I had passed my driving test!!! You guys can catch me on the roads if you can. Hehehehehe... Driving is not that easy for me, I have to familiarise all the expressways in Singapore which I'm trying to do now. Do you know how many expressways there are?? Like TPE,SLE,CTE,BKE,KJE,AYE,ECP!!!!! OMG!!!!!! When comes to map reading, I'm not the first person that you would look for. Can you guess how bad can that be.

Tired, exhausted, happy and sad

2007-04-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hello folks.. Guess is been quite a while since I last blogged. Too many commitments to be committed. I am just so tired.

Things that had keep me busy:
- My new house
- My wedding
- My studies as my exam is coming in June!!!
- My work as I just had an internal transfer. Oh well, I'm still doing accounts but this time round, I'm handling full set of accounts by myself!!! Furthermore, I did not have the experience at all. But I'm lucky to have a colleague who is willing to guide me along. Praise God for that.
- Car practical lessons as I'm having my test on the 04.06.07.

Too many things happen at the same time?? I guess so..

I'm feeling happy because my wedding is coming, which is like 3 more weeks?? Finally I have a house own by myself. Kitchen, living, dinning, study rooms which the colours, furnitures are chosen by me. It had also designed by the way that I like. I'm looking forward to that.. DEFINITELY!!!

I'm sad is because I have to leave my family after I get married. Especially for my mum and brother. I will miss them very much. No one on this whole earth is going to replace them, not even my husband. That kind of closeness that I have with my mum and brother, I just could not describe it here. I know what you all have to say, no one is indispensable and furthermore my husband will be around with me. But I just couldn't bear the lost of seeing them almost everyday. Although at times we quarrel over minor issues, we are fine after the next day. They are so dear to me. I think on my wedding day, I will be crying non-stop. Oh gosh, I just could not image that day...

After marriage, lots of responsibilities will start falls in. Life is not going to be the same once you get married. It is not that easy. It is no longer like when you are single, you do not have to worry about who's paying the utilities bill, who's doing the household chores, what's for dinner tonight and the list goes on and on. You do not have to worry much because we have a super woman to take care all of it. Guess who?? My mother!!! But now, all things are going to change when I get married. There will be no one to help me with all these things. You are on your own!!! And that's the worst part which I hate the most.

Life will change once I get married. But that's bit and pieces of life that we have to go through.

My sweetest memory of my life

2007-01-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

=4th Jan 2007=

Today, it is my baby 32nd birthday. Time flies... Still remember last year on this special day, it was the day that I met him again and get the chance to know him and eventually ending up as couple. It is definitely a memorable date for the both of us. And guess that's why he had choose to propose to me on this day. Yes... HE HAD PROPOSED ON HIS BIRTHDAY!!!! I was dumbfounded when I saw the ring. I'm too shocked to react. But I'm very happy!!! Can you know how excited I am??? He's really a very nice guy that I can rely on for my rest of my life. He's definitely a good man. I'm bessed to have him. Thanks God!!!

Then we went to HDB Hub @ Toa Payoh on the o6.01.07 for selecting our future home. Yes... Excitied and yet nervous at the same time. I felt excited was because I'm going to have the house of our own, nervous about the implications that we are going to face for the next few months. Rennovation for the house, buying of furniture, wedding, solemnsation and so on.. ... I'm worried that we cant cope with the upcoming stress that we would face. Our financial is tight. Real tight. Need to re-finance our spending.

I will be starting my ACCA courses on the 08.01.07. Is a new beginning for me and I will strive towards my goal. Bless me!! Amen!!!!

Christmas is coming

2006-12-21T10:50:00.000+08:00

Once again, is a sesaon of giving and sharing of gifts to friends, love ones, colleagues and family. BUT!!!! The weather is not good for this wonderful festival. Singapore is flooded!!! In my whole 22 years of living in Singapore, it was definitely the first time that I had encounter flooding in Singapore.

Still remember that on Tuesday, I was going to Takashimaya to meet my boyfriend for buying presents for his colleagues. Guess what??? It was raining heavily. Despite the rain, you still managed to see a lot people heading down to town for last minute grapping of presents. The renovation of the underground had affected me very much. Due to the reconstruction, we had to travel up and took another escalator to Takashimaya. Never mind. It was pouring damn heavy that night. Wind was strong, damn cold... It got worst when people just don't want to move and get stuck there. I was so pissed off. I took out my umbrella and took the path outside. Guess I was faster that way. But I was drenched.

The rainfall for this month is over the limits. What happen Jesus?? Is it a sign from you to tell us that we, human had done something wrong which upset you??? Floods had caused traffic jams, trees had been washed down, residents of some area couldnt even return to their home, they had to live in Hotel (Temporary). But what causes all these??? If I did not remember wrongly, it doesn't rain heavily for the past few years. But why??? I couldnt understand.

Oh dear Father, what have we done wrong?? Is it a sign that you want to remind us of the real meaning of celebrating Christmas.

Having lots of troubles with my parents

2006-12-07T08:51:00.000+08:00

I just couldn't believe myself quarreling with my parents on my wedding stuffs. I didn't know that things will get so complicated. God, I need you by my side to empower me with strength and ability to continue to believe what I have believed in.

My parents are giving me pressure. I don't know how to handle it well. Firstly, my dad keeps saying that we should be going back to M'sia to hold our wedding dinner. Secondly, I need to offer incense to my ancestor for telling them I'm getting married blah blah blah... I cant do it man!!! I cant!!! Why must they force me to do the things that I can't even do it??? Thirdly, my relatives from M'sia are coming. I thought I want a simple wedding. That's all. But why in the end, it had evolved into such a big affair???

How are things going

2006-11-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

Oh well, guess is been a quite a long time for not updating on my latest moves.

Many things had happened.......
-Had started my new job on the 13th Nov.
-Trying to adapt to the new environment, colleagues, work, etc....
-Went for ACCA registeration
-Started my very first car practical lesson on the 11th Nov.
-Get our ROM dates->Either 9/11 of March 07?? or 9/23 Dec 07??
-Being going to JB lately to check out on the wedding packages

Seems I'm pretty busy ya... I think so too... But I guess I would love it. Busyness keep everyone going. Isn't that so?? Not just me, Baby is also busy too. He has been looking for our flats. IS TOUGH, not as easy as what I think. Thanks dear..

Thanks for the patience that you have given me. Despite of my "attitude", you are always standing there and still says "I love you"!!! Thanks Dear!!!

Nervous on a lot of things

2006-11-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

Guess I was pretty "gan chiong" yesterday. What did I do?? You willl never able to imagine. Baby and I just went to HDB hub to get the queue number for the walk-in-selection flats for Sengkang, Hougang and Punggol. BUT.. all the credits of getting the queue number must be given to my brother. Thank You Bro!!!! Nevertheless thank you so much. Although the number that we got seems to be quite "hopeless" for getting our dream house. (2593) I will still pray for it. Well, you will never know what's the ending, right??

As for today, I am going to take my basic theory again. Ya, everybody would like saying "Hey you failed your basic theory??" Oh gosh, I couldn't imagine that!!!! I admit I had failed once but this time round, I'm going to pass. IS A MUST!!!!!!! Once again, I will pray again for it. But there is fear in me. I'm scared of failing it again. Even the basic theory I could not pass, then what else can I achieve?? Really have to doubt about it.

Heavenely Father, I know you are always there to keep a watch out for me. I knew that. Father, I pray for intelligence for the test, pray for sharpness in spotting the mistake in the question, I will lift up all the things into your hands Oh Lord. Prasie you almighty God!! In Jesues most precious name I pray Amen.

Disappointed and disappointed

2006-11-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

Why people are so practical?? Why?? Kindly anyone tell me??

When they are in need of people, automatically they will become the BEST boot-licker. I hate these people!!!! They will like say anything to let you stay or whatsoever. I don't give a damn. But this is the fact.. Isnt it? Slowly to realise what is this working world about...

As for now, I been quite "relax". Coming tuesday is my last day at my current company. I will be resting for about 3 days before I start my new job. 13th Nov will be a new beginning for me. I will working in accounting area where I'm not familiar with. There will be a big revamp in my life when the time comes to year 2007. I will be having my ACCA lesson starting at Jan 07, schooling part time and working will be tough. I know is tough, but I know that God will be there for me. I'm fortunate to have the support from my family and love ones. Especially IVAN!! Thank you baby..!!

When my colleagues asked us for some opinions for Christmas Greeting Cards, then I come to realise that in fact there is a month plus away from Christmas. Year 2006 passes so fast. Yes indeed it is. Looking forward to that day....

Super long holiday

2006-10-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

I had a super long holiday starting from 21st Oct to 24th Oct. Total 4 days of rest. When I got back to work on Wednesday, guess the lazy bug still thrives. Hard to focus. But once passed over lunch time, things were getting better.

Guess what I had been doing for the long hoilday?????

21st October 2006
I got too excitied!!! Because we were going to the ZOO!!! Huarry!!! Guess both of us had been a long time sice we visited the zoo. If I did not remember wrongly, my last visit to the zoo was either during my kindergarten days or my primary school days. As for my baby was like during his primary school days. Oh gosh!!! Can you imagine how long we never been going to the zoo??? The welcoming area of the zoo did change a bit. Like they have more F&B outlets like Ben & Jerry and more. Don't be suprised that KFC is still surviving. Heee.. We had received a warm welcome from all the staff and they were indeed very helpful. Yes!! I love it!!! It's surrounding is cleaner, guess they are new animals in the zoo. I couldn't remember if there's any. *Grin* But those popular ones like Polar Bear, Horse Riding, White Tigers, Giraffe and blah blah are arounds. Taken lots of pictures. I kept bumming around in the zoo whereas my baby said that I'm too hyperactive. Is like a "big" kid hopping around. Heee Hee...

After zoo, we had dinners with the nuahz and we head towards to John's house for majohong and durians for supper. Good Life right?? Was damn tired. Although baby is the one was playing for the majohong. Guess I got too hyperactive at the zoo. In the end, I did not company baby till the end of the game. I fall asleep on the sofa.

22nd October 2006
Did not go anywhere coz was too tired from yesterday activities. I even missed the time to go for service.

23rd October 2006
We went in to Johor Bahru to have seafood. It was my first time going to kelong to have seafood. And I can tell you that the seafood is very fresh and most suprising was the PRICE!!! Unbelievable, damn cheap!! Okie, we had seafood tofu, black pepper crab, cai xin and fish. Guess how much does it cost us?? RM99 which is like SGD42.85.. Isn't it unbelievable??

After the fabulous dinner at the kelong, we went to Tebrau City also at J.B. It is the some sort of "biggest" shopping mall at J.B. As we normally visit City Square right?? This shopping mall is damn cool.. Trust me!! Most of the brands/shops that we saw in Singapore was there too like Espirit, Topshop, Bodyshop, Popular (but they name it as other name) cant remember what's the name is and many more... But to my advise, never purchase any branded goods in M'sia. The price is quite high. Not worth to buy at M'sia, is more advisable to buy in Singapore ya!! After some window-shopping, we went to Secret Recipe to have out dessert!! I had Coffee Cocoa Cake and whereas he had White Chocolate Macdenia Cake with vanilla milk shake and green apple katsuri. Nice and damn cheap too!!! Total bill was RM31 which is like SGD 13.40.. I bet with you that you can't get this kind of price in Singapore OK??? Is exactly the same products that we have in Singapore. Why is it so expensive here?? Not fair... After knowing the difference in price, I told myself that I will only have my craving for Secret Recipe cakes in M'sia. :)

As usual, we did face the traffic jam at the causeway. Reached home at about 12 midnight. Was too tired. But I had a wondeful day. Really love it so much. Should we do this more often dear????

24th October 2006
I can't really remember wat we did for today. It seems that we did not go anywhere, only went out to have dinner then my baby send me home.

In actual fact, we supposely should be going to Genting for a short holiday. Never mind dear, we will go next time round. Hor dear???

Comex @ Expo 2006

2006-09-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh.... What a damn hot day!!!!! Did not head down to the beach vollyball. Guess what I had for today?

Woke up early in the morning to have dim sum @ Hong Xin Restuarant @ Chinatown to have breakfast with my hubby-to-be. Is my first time there. To my suprised that it was crowded for Saturday. As I always thought that Sunday will be more crowded. Guess I am wrong.

After breakfast, we head towards to Redhill to have a look for showflats. Nowadays, 4-room flat is quite small unlike the old days... ... The location is good. Very near MRT and town, but the price is way too expensive. We couldnt afford it. So I guess it still had to go back to our orginal plan->Buy our house @ Sengkang and will buy car for my transport to work.

After all these, baby and I went ahead to Expo to buy NOTEBOOK. At 1140am, there's already a lot of people at Expo. The "kaisuim" of Singaporeans is there.... Overall, the crowd is not as bad as what I had in mnd. Bought my notebook and router there. Freebies!!! Lucky Draws!!!!

Baby going for Ligament Operation

2006-08-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

Today, baby is going to Raffles Hospital for his ligament operation. Oh Gosh, I just pray that he will be fine. Although he keep saying that this is a minor operation, my worries for him just could not end.

Coincidentaly, my colleagues from Thailand is coming this week. Due to this, I could not take any leave to company baby. The only thing I can do is to go hospital after my work. Hope he will understands. Next month, there will be having Flavours International Asia (FIA) holding at Thailand. Most of the flavours comapany in Singapore and from all parts of the world will be having their falvours being display at there. Heard from my bosses, this event is held annually. It is quite a huge event.

Baby, please be fine after the operation k??? Lots of worries for you....

Night b4 I go for Bangkok

2006-08-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

By the way, today is Singapore 41st Birthday!! Happy Birthday Singapore!!! Okie, back to today's topic.

My trip to Bangkok will be from 10th Aug to 13th Aug, is going to my first time, feeling nervous. Firstly, I will be going to pay a visit to my colleagues at Thailand. Secondly, I will be bringing bottles of flavours and pork ribs with me. I'm not sure whether I can pass the custom smoothly. I have no idea man. Nervous and nervous.

I will be going with my baby!!! I have been looking forward to this trip for a very long time. Finally!!! Hope both of us will enjoy to the fullest.

Pray for journey mercy. Pray things will go well when I have reach Bangkok. Pray for good weather. Amen!!!!

So, I won't be in town till I get back on Sunday night. Won'thave the time to immediate update my blog. Will try my best to upload the pics. See ya... ... Bye...

What I felt after watching =The Lake House=

2006-08-03T10:30:00.000+08:00

=2nd Aug 06=

Time slot for this movie is at 7.40pm. Quite late huh? While on the way to Cineleisure, I was thinking whether I will fall asleep while watching the movie. Romantic shows will cause drowness. Don't you know that??

Normally, I don't like to catch a movie on weekdays especially after a long dreadful day of work. I'm was fucking tired after work. After long hours of discussion and knowing there will be tons of work waving at me!!! Oh no... Can't imagine what will happen to me tomorrom... ...

I love watching it. The story plot is good. The lake house is beautiful. How I wish I could have a house like this. Story was about how Kate and Alex fall in love with each other despite there's a 2 years which drifted them apart. Amazing, is how the story had came to the end. They managed to meet each other on the 14th Feb 2006 at the lake house.

Story is long. Can't managed to pen it all down. But for those who don't love romance story. Please do not go. Coz, no matter how good the story is, you will still say that this story is full of bull shit. It only happen in the movies not reality. Wake up man!!!!

I admire the love between Alex and Kate. Guess you could not find this kind of love exist in this world. Nowadays, women are becoming more materialistic. Love... ... What's that??

But but... For me, love play a great part in my life. My partner, family comes in first pirority. Guess I'm an emotional person. Way too emotional is not good neither.

Finally Baby is back from Hong Kong

2006-07-31T12:27:00.000+08:00

=30th July 2006=

A day that I had been looking forward. Coz, my baby is on his way back to Singapore. He is boarding on sq865 at 6.40pm ans will be reaching at 10.10pm at Terminal 2.

Without hin around for nearly a week, nearly "kill" me. I could not get use of not having him around. Especially on weekends. I felt so lost. Lucky for me, I have a group of vollyball kakis... Hee... I went down to the beach to have some vollyball games before going to the airport. Oh gosh, half of the day was raining. Ultimately, I still got myself burnt. Find it amazing?? I think so too.

Ssb is no longer at siloso beach. In the meantime of waiting for the new place to complete the renvoation, they had moved over to Tanjong Beach for a temporary of 2 months. Oh no... Getting there is so inconvenient!!!! Worse was that, there is no proper toliet!!! Bathing after the games will be a problem. I had to take the beach tram to Dolphin logoon in order to have myself showered. Troublesome!!!!!

Time flies... Soon enough for me to go to the airport to fetch him. Is my first time of fetching people from the airport.

I am glad that all the instruction of getting to the airport is clear. Guess is fortunate to live in Singapore. The instruction is clear, no tourists will be "lost". I thought I will be dead as I'm a person w/o any sense of direction. Phew... I reached there in 1 piece. Heee...

Waited anxiously at the airport. Keep starring to the gate for the familiar figure, my baby. Guess my neck grow a few more centimetres of looking around for him. Hahahahaha.........

FINALLY!!! MY BABY IS BACK!!!! I cried. But all those tears are wipe quickly. Don't want to let him know about it. I am very very happy that he's back. Really missed him badly.

Made him a present. Hope he likes it.

Baby bought me a Espirit bag and a bottle of exfoliating salt from Bodyshop at Hong Kong. The design for the bad is not available in Singapore. Heeee... I was suprised as baby did mention that things at Hong Kong is not cheap. Surprisly, is was expensive than Singapore. Nevertheless, he still buy presents for me. Really appreciate that!!!

Ripcurl Beachvollyball Competition 2006

2006-07-17T16:02:00.000+08:00

=16th July 2006=

=Logo of the T-shirt from Ripcurl=

Welcome to the annually beach vollyball competition.... This year round, there's no competition held from Quicksilver, whereas it was held by Ripcurl instead. Erm.. The goodie bag was not pretty excellent. Guess goodie bag from Quicksilver was better. And we no longer played the competition at ssb. This time had changed to Palwan Beach. Wow!! The sand was damn rough. Not very suitable to play vollyball. Worse was... THE WEATHER!!! The sand was so hot that even the players have to wear either shoes or socks to play. Isnt it ridiculous??

By the way we lost in the competition. When I will be able to win a trophy/medal back????

=My team mates for the day=

=Nuahz who participate in 4-on-4=

=What numbers had you guess???=

Weather was bloody hot!!! In fact, today we need to celebrate Lifang and Qiwei Birthday. But due to "unexpected" circumstances... such at last minute, Lifang said that she need to go back for her grandma birthday celebration. What de?? So, I guess the post-celebration for her was cancelled.

So, baby and I decided to go back and had a little nap before we head to his club to have Japanese Buffet.

While we were on our lala-land... Weixiang,(Baby's Buddy) called. So, baby had asked him to join us to dinner. Tracy and GuangHao wanted to join in too. But when we reaached Weixiang's apartment, they were still at Sim Lim Square buying stuff. Couldn't manage to afford to wait for them. So, at the end went ahead to the buffet without them. The air-con of the restaurant was damn strong. Guess it purposely turn the temperature very low in order to avoid people staying very long. Cox they need the tables quick and had a fast turn-over rate. (This is what I had guessed). Otherwise why switch on the bloody air-con for so low. Is really damn freezing. No joke man. Overall, the food was not bad, not much of variety to choose from. But what matters to me was the company that I had. Baby, because you are there...!!!

Have a tiring day.... Aching everywhere.... ....

Time passed so fast!!

2006-07-13T09:04:00.000+08:00

=12th July 06=

Was celebrating Shih Jia's farewell lunch for her in the office. After working in KH for 3 years, she decided to further her studies at NUS. From the compnay point of view, of course we feel relecant to let her go, but at another view, furthering her studies is also good, is for her enrichment in Food Technology. And her dreams come true.

Went "shopping" at 11.15am, to fetch for foods like KFC, Sakai Sushi, noodles, fried rice and drinks. Time passed so fast. If I didn't remember wrongly, 2 years ago I was still undergoing student internship with Keith Harris (KH). But now, I'm officially part of the family. At that time, Shih Jia was my "shi jie" for the segment of Quality Control (QC). But now, being as her colleagues for not more than 2 months, and she's leaving.

Guess people change over time.... The closeness with her is no longer there. Or maybe there is a slight misunderstanding between us which I shall not disclose it here. Guess is way too long for me to explaine what actually happened. No point!!!

Many people will step or leave footprints in the life, is up to us to decide which are the memorable ones to keep it in our hearts! People come and go... Is normal, I guess....

Maybe I had changed over the years. The thought of settling down next year, wil change my way of speaking or the way how I deal with things. Settling down, there's alot of commitment involved. All my peers around my age is like still either schooling or just step in the working society. I couldn't be as KIDDISH as before. Guess no more of that anymore. Once I have settle down, family and husband will come in my top priority!!!! Responsibilites come with great power!!! Find that familar???

Many things will be coming and I am definitely looking forward to my BIG DAY!!! I'm the prettiest!!! Heee... *Grin*

BBQ, Dying hairs at J.B

2006-06-26T08:57:00.000+08:00

=24th June 06=

Wake up at 8am... As baby wants to send his car for polishing. The place wasat Toh Guan, near IMM. Reachd there at about 9.30am. We cant possibility stay there till the polishing finished. So, we went IMM to have our breakfast at Macdonalds. Later on, was shopping at IMM till the guy called and ask us to collect the car.

After that, it was heading the time for us to head towards Johor Bahru. Once again, this trip in was for baby's car too. Aiyo.. Baby didnt manage to have enough Ringit for the fees. Hmm... next time should have change in Singapore to save all these troubles.

Waited for 1-2 hours for the services. Soon after that we went hunting for our "hair saloon". I wanted to have my hair dyed for donkey years. Baby said that dying hair at J.B may be cheaper. Firstly, went to the new shopping mall, Tebrau City. It is huge. Not much difference. I felt shopping in Singapore. Coz I could see most of the shop like Mango, Espirit, G2000, Popular and etc... But I didnt get the chance to really have a shopping spree at there. Coz I was busying looking for hair saloon to have my hair dyed. As baby and I have a bbq to rush at 9pm. After checking at Janzten my hair length would cost RM190.00. I thought it was still expensive.

So, went to another place, Holiday Inn, where a lot of hair saloons. Indeed, there was a lot of hair saloon for you to choose from. Too many that you couldnt decide which one to go in for the service. Went asking around for the price for my hair length. Guess what??? The highest that I came across was RM300.00. Wow!!!! Then I might as well have my hair dyed in Singapore. Why make all these troubles to come in J.B to have my hair dyed?? Finally, baby and I managed to find another saloon which provide quite reasonablw price. And it only cost RM180.00 for me and RM110.00 for baby.
**All these inclusive of dying, treatment and cutting** Is a a good "bargain"!!! Isnt it?? First time baby and I have our hair dyed together. Baby had also changed his hair style too. Normally, he wont have his hair style change. This time round, he did... Is nice and suits him... Personally, I like it very much.

After all these, went to linkai condo for BBQ. The BBQ foods were great! I like the sausages very much!!! Baby and Denny was handling the BBQ stuffs. Guess it was my first time seeing baby "cooking" the foods. And he seems to do it quite well. Impressed!!! After the BBQ, they continue by playing majong. They played from around 11pm till 4am !!!! I couldnt stand it, guess I dose off. Overall Baby lose $40.00. Not too much lar.. Still manageable!!! Heee... Have a great day with baby. Hope to do this often with him. Love u always!!!

Wedding Bells for Choy Gee and Linda

2006-06-19T13:05:00.000+08:00

=17th June 06=

Finally, the day that Choy Gee and Linda are looking forward to. They have been dating for donkey years. Nowadays, is really not easy to have a long run relationship. Cheers for the both of them. Finally, they have make it so far, a new journey of their new life have just begin!!!

Happiness was all over Linda and Choy Gee. Love is in the air... ...

Guess what?? This couple didn't hold their wedding at hotel nor restaurant. They had their wedding at Wine Company. This idea was pretty cool. Nice ambient, nice and cosy with only close friends were invited. (No relatives ya!!) Red and white wine was going around with lots of side dishes like smoked salmon, chicken wings, pizza, bread/biscuit with tuna and the list goes on and on... ... Pretty cool huh?? I like this idea. Is not so tiring and is flexible too!!!

All the ladies had received 1 stalk of rose and a box of chocolate whereas guys had received 1 cigar. Interesting idea?? Hmm.... ****Points taken for future reference****

Still remember what Choy Gee had said in one of his "speeches"... Here goes saying that they did faced a lot challenges like temptation along the way and blah blah... But what I remembered the most was MUST HAVE FAITH!!!!!!!!! It struck me. Baby and I will be going to undergo what they had gone through. Guess Faith is the right word to use.

First time playing tennis

2006-06-19T12:54:00.000+08:00

=16th June 06=

Meet baby after work for dinner and most importantly my first lesson for TENNIS! I'm definitely look forward to that coz I had always wanted to pick up this sports like 4 years ago?? Guess it was in my poly days... Too bad I stayed too far from my poly, otherwise I will definitely went to sign up as my CCA.

My dreams going to come true.... Played for nearly 2 hours. Exhausted, hardly have wind for that night, was damn stuffy and humid!!! Perspire quite a bit. Sorry for my baby. As he had back injury and he had to keep picking balls around the court. But I can see that he's been very patient with me. Guess I'm the one who's getting impatient. What the hack I'm thinking?? Halo... People willing to coach and here goes my impatient!!! Just couldn't understand????

Bet both of us are tired. Tomorrow, baby still have to wake up early for Choy Gee and Linda's wedding. He is one of the brothers for Choy Gee... All the best for the brothers!!!!!!

What attitude I have

2006-06-12T12:54:00.000+08:00

For the past few months, baby really tolerate my nasty "attitude". I just don't understand why I will behaviour in such manners. Seriously, I REALLY DON'T KNOW!!! But there's one thing for sure, baby gets hurt deeply in the heart.

Although I can't say much, guess the only thing that I can do is to change my "attitude". The fear of losing him is increasing... ... Scare that my nasty "attitude" will cause him away. Fear of losing someone you love is indeed very scary...!!!! Now, I'm experiencing it... Shit!!! Damn shit!!!! What am I suppose to do?

Really have to change my "attitude"!!!!!!!!

Initially, my "attitude" wasn't like that. It evolved over time... Is it a self-automatic defence system of my brain or body????But what am I defencing for??? I don't know. Why often I had to react in this way??? WHY??? WHY???? I hate myself!!!! Really hated myself so so much!!!!

It had affected us in one way... Definitely, I hope that it will not ruin the relationship. What I can say is that baby is always so forgiving, loving. At times, I did take him for granted, thinking that he's always there for me. Damn shit!!! I shouldn't have this kind of feelings right??? Argh..!!!!!

Cooking Pasta at baby's house

2006-06-06T10:44:00.000+08:00

=4th June 06=

Bright sunny Sunday, both of us woke up quite early to do some groccies. People must be thinking what the hack of waking up so early?? Shouldnt we suppose to sleep till noon..... Heee.....Baby wants to prepare pasta for lunch. Interesting??!!! As this was the first time baby stepped into kitchen and prepare lunch for the family. Guess he seldom cooks at home. So, I was quite surprised by it. He was so ethuastic about it, he even went to internet to search for the recipe before we head down to NTUC. Definitely, I will be supporting him.

Action starts...!!!!! We start at around 11am. But I had to mention that the cutting of the ingredients were done by me. Not fair lar.. He should be doing all the steps by himself right?? Lots and lots of garlic and mushroom were needed. But till the end, we realise that mushroom was not enough. (Need to buy more mushroom). A lot of laughter in the kitchen. His sister and mum keep coming in the kitchen and sees how he does it. Most of his family members were doubting whether this pasta would turn out well?? In actual fact, this was what I think so too. Hee....

Baby had read through the recipe thousands time and at times he still forgot when to add the ingredients. Like for instance the adding of lime juice and 1/2 cup of pasta water. You should be looking at his reaction to it. Is damn funny. Too bad that I didnt manage to record it down. His action definitely would bring lots of memorable memories for us and this is just the begining of the journey. Both of us still have a very long way of exploring each others strength and weakness. He's definitely my sunshine.

Baby.... We should do it more often. Is really fun preparing lunch together.

Gathering with my FYP mates

2006-06-05T20:47:00.000+08:00

=2nd June 06=

Friday is the day that I had met up with my FYP mates from TP. Guess this is the very first time that we had met after our graduation. Everyone was busy with their new life. Our first taste of working life, starting to enjoy what's call Adult Life.

Baozhu, Sally and I kept talking non-stop. All of us was like trying to update our recent status to each other. Like fighting "attachtion" from each other. Heeee...

We didnt gather that long coz Sally had to attend some work-related issue. But we promise there will be the next time that we will meet and I believe it will.

I was waiting for dear at the "taxi-stand" outside Carls Junior. Damn crowded, guess the PC fair at Suntec did some contribution to the crowd. I hate crowds!!!!! Baby being so nice to pick me up.

He took an urgent leave from work to bring his dad for chemo therapy. So he's not working today!!! Guess he had realise that although he didnt talk much to his dad, his prescence did make a difference. That's good, baby. Is never too late to realise it. I dont want to see you regretting of not talking to your dad. Make full use when he is still around.

Working at the company that I used to hv my SIP

2006-06-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day that I reported for work, where I have my Student Internship Program (SIP) when I'm schooling at Temasek Polytechnic (TP). I felt going back "home" again. Everyone in the company is still there, surrounding hardly change, boss attitude remains.

Although I knew all the people and how does the company function, all those formalities which includes introducing me to the whole company, "touring" of the company telling me where are all the stuff being kept and so on... ... But I already knew all these. By the way, I still have to go through it.At that time of SIP, I'm still a student after all. Now, totally different. I'm a full-time staff, and more responsiblities is on the way.

Whole day was taking down notes on how to do that and do this. A lot of the terms they used were so familiar, but it just couldnt ring a bell in my head. Oh gosh.... Here goes my stress!!!!! Guess I had been lost touch of my area of studies too long like for 2 years??? Have a lot of catch up to do in order not to make any mistake in my job.

My very first massage

2006-05-30T11:46:00.000+08:00

=27th May 06=

My virginity to MASSAGE... ....

Finally back to beach ya! The sense of going bck was damn good. What a bright sunny day at ssb. Had my first training @ sentosa, because I had enrolled for 5km run for Shape as they are celebrating for their 2 years anniversary. Definitely need training, otherwise how could I be possible to finish???? I need time to build up my stamina, edurance and speed. So, now is the time to start now!!!!!!! Cant slack man...

Long distance require endurance, utlimately is depend on the mental of the individual. The mental of carry on jogging. Said is easier than done. Running at outdoor must also depends on alot of things like for instance, weather. If on that particular day, the weather is damn bloody hot, it will definitely affect our performance. Worst still, I cant drink any water before I run or replenish throughout the run. COZ I WILL GET STITCH!!!!!

I didnt manage to complete the 7km training. But managed to get back, dun worry still in 1 piece. Heeee.... After running, I felt so tired, refused to play vollyball. Guess my body just refused to listen to me. At the end, baby and I left the beach at around 4 plus as baby need to send his car for some "repair". Is about tunning his speaker. Not quite sure what is it all about. (I'm not interested in cars, nonetheless about accessories for cars). While waiting for the car to be ready, I went for Javanese Massage which lasted for 1 and a half hour, which include a full body massage (1 hr) and exfoliating plus moisturing using goat's milk(1/2hr). Damn shiok, but is also painful.

To my surprise, the car was not even start "repairing". Hmm... The queue was quite long. Guess we have to come back again for the service. Lorence aka Wei Xiang, babay and me went to KFC for dinner. After dinner, went to cineleisure to catch movie. Guess what? You hardly can imagine what's the crowd look like. A lot a lot of ppl, guess all were rushing to grab anything from GSS(26TH May06-23rd July06). The time interval for the movies were like 10-15 minutes apart and the most amazing thing was that all of them were either selling fast or sold out. What man???? Hardly got down to town for an hour??? and went back. Guess was my duration in town.

Advice---->Better shop during weekdays.

Expensive Dinner

2006-05-29T13:24:00.000+08:00

=26th May 06=

So far, today's dinner was the most expensive dinner that I ever had. We had held a bdae celebration at seletar camp, sunset grill cafe, for Cai Zhi. Didnt expect it to be so EXPENSIVE. Each person was about $46/=.

Baby said that was quite normally to pay this amount when I hang out with the nuahz grp. Guess I need to get used to the spending power of this group.

I had my favourite buffulo wings and spagetti. This time round we tried the level 4. It spoiled the original taste of the wings. Guess the spicness of the wings had masked over the taste of the spagetti, as my tounge was numb!!!! The spagetti tasted tasteless. No taste, very bland. In conclusion, level 2 is still the best for the buffulo wings and next time I couldnt have my favourite spagetti with level 4 wings.
*Level refer to the hotness of the wings.

Disagreements

2006-05-24T17:01:00.000+08:00

Recently, have a lot of disagreement with dear. If this continues, it will definitely affect our relationship. Just give me time to adapt to you. That's all.... Things that we disagree are as follows:

- Pay/Salary should be in our top priority
- Right way of handling on resignation letter and appointment letter
- Do I know my rights under the MOM?

All the disagreement are related to workworkwork... ...

Hmmm... Maybe I should do some adjustment to myself. Why all these keep happening? Why? Maybe I am the one who's at the wrong. Despite all these, I still love him alot and I find out that I love him more and it just makes me feel that he's the one for me. I really cant leave w/o him. In regardless of my stubborness, ignorance towards him, he is still there. Amazingly, he could take it.

Dear I know that I owe you alot. I hope you still love me?????????

I feel so upset

2006-05-22T16:03:00.000+08:00

=20th May 2006=

On this shity day, I hv to work!!!! Despite knowing ssb is going to close down in 1 month plus, my heart jux feel so pain. Mostly, I didnt have time to accompany my darling. As this wk, we didnt really hv time to meet up. So, I really cherish whatever time that I hv with my dear. Up to no choice, protest is unvalid! Still hv to work, feel like giving tons n tons of excuses for not turning up. But I cant do it, I still hv my conscience. Must be responsible towards to my job.

I hv to leave quite early for work, so cant really wait till dear's mum to buy bck the lunch. So, dear dear being so sweet n understanding. Guess wat? Dear prepare noodles for me!!! I was quite suprised! Really... Is the very first time dear cooked for me. Although it is jux instant noodles with some eggs, deep down in my heart, I feel so sweet with additional sweetner added. Hee Hee... Is the thoughts tt count, n I really appreciate tt.

Dear came over to fetch me up from work. He's always so thoughtful. He's always dere for me, n most importantly he really dotes on me very much. Hee... Suddenly feel that I'm damn so fortunate. Went over to Marina Sq to hv our dinner. G2000 have 40% sales n upon having American Express credit card, additional 15% more. Wow!!!!! Good bargain rite? Quickly grab ya!!!!! We didnt buy any coz dear need to get his AmerciaN Express card to hv the additonal 15%. So tml, we will be bck. Hee Hee....

After dinner, went to hospital to see dear's dad. Now, he is undergoing chemo-therapy. At least, saw some improvement on him n I'm glad tt he's feeling better now. Saw how his dad suffers is really a tortue for me. At certain moments I felt like crying. Is jux so sad to see him suffer, lying on the bed, n we cant do anything to help him. GOD WAT'S THIS? Pls God, with ur magnificane healing powers, heal him, give him the will to live on and the strength to carry on with his last stage of his life. Amen

I really wish tt his dad will be on the way of recovery. So that the whole family wont be so tired, especially dear. He's been running to the hospital almost everyday. Saw how tired he is n I cant do anything!!!! Argh...!!!!!

Mother's Day celebration @ Soup Resturant

2006-05-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

=14th May 06=

Sunday is Mother's Day!!!! Is time for us to treat our mothers and pamper, shower them with lots of our love and care. And this special day, is dear dear going to meet my family for the very first time. Guess I'm getting nervous rather than he does. I was thinking whether my family members will like him? Will they reject us? Or.... I dont know man, anything may happen.

Dear dear and I reached the resturant first. Oh no.... My family were late for about 20-30 minutes. Hmmmm.... Isnt a bad impression for him? Once they reached, all the normal basic stuff like addressing my parents, and blar blar... all of us were so damn quiet. No one actually dares to say anything. Utlimetly, everything was still fine. Dear managed to get along with my dad, which I found it quite surprising. Coz I knew that my dad was not that "easy" to handle. Guess dear had his way to deal with my dad. Hee Hee...

=Dear with my family=

This is the picture that dear took with my family, but sad to say that my sister was not in the photo. Isnt it too bad?? Is really a rare opportunity for us to have a family photo. Haiz... ...

Overall, I think the "meeting session" was still quite alright. Guess my dad likes him. That's a good sign. Keep it up ya, dear....!!!!

Back in Spore from Mersing

2006-05-02T22:11:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Nothing much in particular in Mersing, is a small town. Lucky for us, there was an event when we were at Mersing. It was all about motor racing, is my first time seeing it. Nothing interesting, when dear, John and I reached, those stunts were finished for the day except the endurance round, where the drivers had to keep going in the track for like 2 hours...... Crazy right?? Opps.... Maybe I dont know how to appreciate it.

Oh ya... The weather was damn bloody HOT!!!!! The weather did cause fatigue among the cyclist, especially from the 80km mark onwards, where a lot of slopes was coming in. Exhaustion, fatigue, muscle cramp, what kind of situations you can think of.... Guess what? They had drank 24 bottles of mineral water and 22 bottles of 100 plus. Both were in 1.5L.

The hotness is not like in Singapore, cant describe.... The air is dry... Once the sun reached our skin, burning senation. No Joke man!!!!! Lucky, I am in the land transport, no need to suffer so much. Hehehehehehe........

On the second day, thought of going to Rawu Island for snokering, playing beachvollyball, relax ourselves. Too bad, too last minute and plus that it was a long wkend, many ppl went for diving trip. So, left with no speedboat for us to go. But in actual fact, there is.... But it was double the usual prize, which is like 70RM per person. Wow!!!!!! I dont think is worth going with that kind of price. At the end, the whole grp of us end up watching dvd in the room.

The last nite at Mersing was terrible. Dear couldnt sleep. The bikers keep going up and down at the road, which our hotel was jux beside it. Damn noisy...... Guess dear couldnt sleep well. But I think I slept like a pig.... Heeeeheeeee.... Woke up at 4am!!! To send the cyclist off. It was very dark, didnt manage to see any lamp post. Rear and back light is very crucial here. Cyclist had to be very careful, NO SPEEDING YA!!!!!

Finally, we reached Singapore at 2.30pm. The rest reached earlier than us, they reached abt 1.30pm. Lucky, there wasnt a heavy traffic jam. God Bless!!!!

End, the day at Tim's house. His house had a good view on sunset. He live at the highest level->30th storey!!! Was a bit scare from looking from his window. But nice view.... :) Watched the video we took during the trip, was laughing all the way. Kay Wee aka Kiwi, was proven by us saying that he is the Best actor in the nuahz grp... Applause everyone!!!!!! He was damn funny. Slowly, it had come to the end.................

Not in Singapore till Monday

2006-04-28T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hey.... Is a long weekend again, isnt tt good?

Been looking forward to this for very long, is my first time been as land transport for the nuahz cyclist. So excited abt it. But dear says that it will be quite "boring" for us. Coz we cant travel fast, we need to keep stopping to ensure their safety and to replenish them with food and drinks. Mostly must tk photos of them. There are 2 cars to be their land transport, Cindy's and Dear's car. Total of 134km to cycle from Singapore to Mersing. They will need the whole day to travel up. Guess we will reach mersing at dinner's time. Hope that the weather will be fine, as extreme hot weathers will decrease the performance of the cyclist.

Need to sleep early tonight. As we are meeting at Causway at 5.30AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wow... ... Dman early, but no choice.... Tata... Will update you all in details when I'm back. (Depends, if I'm busy, then I wont have time to update).... See you soon... ...

Fine Dinning at Singapore Swimming Club

2006-04-26T09:44:00.000+08:00

=25th Apr06=

It was a long and hetic at work. It seems there's always endless work that I could finish. The workload keep piling up and at times I dont know which to priorties. Nobody is to guide me in this new trade, is really hard. Real tired........

But...... Looking forward to tonight's dinner. Is at dear's club, as he has $90 to use under his membership. So, why not, otherwise the $90 will be forfietted. What a waste... Heeee..... The ambience of the restaurant is good. Quiet, playing smoothing music, well decorated, I like that place. First we were serve with bread and butter, followed by a plate of mixed appetiser which consist of musscle, sotong, pickles. Then follwed by our main dish. Dear had ordered lamb, the actual name of the dish I couldnt remembered. Mine is baked cod fish. To my surprised, the plate was warm too. Which a lot of restaurant neglected this. I was impressed. The ultimate is the dessert. [[Bomb Alaksa]] It's a ice-cream cake with liquor on top of it. First, the cake will be "flame" by the liquor to get "burnt". Nice performance by the waiter. It was my first time having this Russian dessert. It was nice, guess the waiter poured alot of the liquor which make the dessert taste weird. In overall, it was still nice.

Fine Dinning is nice, but cant have it all the time.

Being not observant enough

2006-04-24T09:29:00.000+08:00

On Sunday, we went to Courts @ Toa Payoh to shop for fax machine. His mum needs it for work related issue. At the end, didnt manage to buy one. Is either too expensie or is juz not that practical to pay for it. Although you can see sales sign everywhere, basically jux couldnt get any good stuff from there. Might as well go to Sim Lim Square, which you can look for the best price . Like for instance, dear bought a Epson Printer CX3700 for $169, whereas Courts selling at $188. You see????

Didnt manage to buy a fax machine back. At the end, we met up with the nuahz cyclist at one of the petrol station at Toa Payoh. Coincidence rite??? Ya... This prove that Singapore is real damn small... Alvin had given us his keys to his house. Hey, suppose arent we going home after that? Hmmm... Oh well, we didnt have any plans after shopping at Toa Payoh, so we went ahead with the idea of going to his hse, to wait for the nuahz ppl to finish up the last click of their training.

Had a fabulous dinner at his hse. Alvin is really a great cook. Must learn more from him. Hee Hee... So in future I can cook for my dear . After dinner, Linda was briefing on the cycling trip to Mersing. Time passed so fast that we couldnt even realise that the trip is actually on the coming weekend. I am quite excited abt it. Hope it will be fun. (",)

On the way home, suddenly dear asked me "We have been travelling on this road for so many times. Could you remember? Or name the Expressway that I used?" Wow... I dont even bother. Seriously, no doubt abt it. Dear says is good to be more observant and he thinks that a person couldnt live w/o directions and he thinks that I am lack in this area. But is the truth, I am quite useless whenever in direction. Guess need to think abt it and revamp myself. I guess everyone have to go through the learning progress. Neither do I, is time that I learnt and be be a bit more "sense of direction".

Short Hoilday to KL and Melaka

2006-04-17T16:42:00.000+08:00

=13th to 16th April 06=

Good Friday is on the way, and it reminds me of how Jesus die for us on the cross to redeem our sins. How magnificance is He. How noble is He too. For this yr I couldnt go to the church for Easter Sunday as I will be away for a short holiday to KL and Melaka.

The journey starts......... On thursady night.........

Looking forward to the holiday through the midst of my work. Was keep looking at my watch. "Hey, when is the time for me to knock off ". Was keep on praying that there wont be any last minute thing at work, so that I could leave work on the dot. Lucky for me.. There isnt, so indeed I really leave the office at 6pm!!!!! Finally... In an hour time I will on my way to KL..!!!!! The bus came late, I got quite anxious abt it coz I haven have my bag packed. So was like a guanchong spider... Like dont know what to do.....

Dear, Qiwei and Lifang reached my house at ard 8.10pm. We were the the last car to leave to KL. MingHao and Hendry were already on the way le. They start off at 7pm. Why make a big fuss of it when at the end, everybody reached KL at abt the same time. Furthermore, we were the first to reach the hotel. What's all abt to agrue??? Right?? Dear was quite "pissed". Guess he said something to MingHao. All these delay was caused by MingHao, he was late for the 7pm. SEE.... I ALREADY SAID THAT 7PM IS TOO RUSH!!!!! How is that possible to make it ma.... Use common sense lar....

Dear was very hungry........ Is my very first time saw him "rushed" to the food stall to order his food, once we reached the 1st resting point. Later, I found out that dear didnt managed to have his lunch. All "thanks" to his colleagues. As they had lunch over 2 hours. Dear, I will be worried for you. Is not good for your health ya... PLEASE REMEMBER THAT!!!! I suppose to keep him company by talking to him on the way to KL, so that he wouldnt be falling asleep. Guess I did fall asleep at certain point of the jurney. Sorry ya!!!!!

Reached KL at ard 1am. Huarry!!! Finally we are here!!!!!!!! The lift of the hotel was quite small, only could allow 4 person to be in the lift. Can you imagine that??? What if the lift broke down??? Not enough oxygen leh!!!! Will die!!!!

After checking in, a total of 11 of us which are Daryl, Suzanne, BK, Hendry, Minghao, Sharon, Lifang, Qiwei, Jeff, dear and me were wandering the street of KL. We were looking for some pub for drinks. Hendry was thirst for beer. But we didnt know that all the clubs in KL closed at 2pm on thursday. Hendry even went to ask for road direction from the police. See how "desperate" is he... Hee Hee.... At the end, went into a pub where we saw a lots of Indonesian or Philipians and "Ang Moh" and Ah Guay!!! I dont like the environment, the music damn loud, was like bursting my ear drums. Perhaps I am feeling tired, don't have the mood for clubbing or pubbing. But the whole grp of ppl were going, I dont want to spoilt their mood, so jux went ahead. Pub till ard 3am ba, then we head bck to hotel. Had wanton mee for supper. After having supper the rest still went to 7-elven to buy more beers to drink in the hotel. Really Pei fu them!!!!

Friday, we couldnt wake up on time for the breakfast offer by the hotel. Had brunch at one of the roadside stall. After having brunch, is shopping spree time... Heee!!!! In total I had bought 3 pairs of shoes, jeans, necklaces, ear-rings, key pouch, and mangos!!!! The weather isnt that good. It rained and we had to buy an umbrella to go bck to hotel. Places we had shopped like Sungei Wang, BB Plaza, Lot 10, Mid Valley, Chinatown.

Had our dinner at Chinatown. We had the famous "Lao shu fen" at one of the vallys. Still quite alright lar, but I still prefer the "Sa po fan". After dinner, we went to Zouk . Was on the verge of getting into the club but suddenly we came to realise that the guys dont have proper attire to enter. They need a collar shirt to enter to velvet. Shit!!!! We didnt think of that. As Singapore velvet isnt that strict. We thought KL too, make a mistake there. Haiz... What to do? We left with no choice, juz had to go to other chiong place. Later on we went to Rum Jungle where's a live band, the music was quite alright. All of them drank to their hearts content. Was dancing, drinking, taking photos... All so crazy... Dear and I left first, coz I think I couldnt make it le. Need to go bck and rest first. Lucky dear is there, otherwise I couldnt imagine what will happen to me???

Is checked out time on Saturday. Had wanton mee for lunch. Guess if I didnt remembered wrongly, I had wantoon mee for the past few days. Will get sick of it. After lunch, Hendry, Daryl and Suzanne went bck to Singapore. The rest will head to Melaka for another night there.

Once again, I fall asleep while on the way to Melaka. Hee... Seems like a lazy pig who keep sleeping/dozing off. Reached Melaka in an hours time. Was quite fast. Was abit lost of finding the Hotel. But we "Ai zai" ma.... So no problem for us. Hee Hee.... The hotel at Melaka was damn shiok. It even had a kitchen. Family room for 7 of us. Full room air-conditioned. Was really damn shiok, we even have a sea view of it!! Not bad ya... At least is much better than the one in KL. Once we reached cheked in the hotel, we went shopping again. Hee....

We had our dinner at the famous teochew restaurant. Guess one the food variety show did visit them (Singapore). The restaurant only can take in abt 7 tables in one go. So definitely need booking. Lucky the boss was kind enough to let us have a table. Otheriwse I will missed out the yummy "OH NI" le... Is teochew tpicial dessert. Guess we spend how much on the food??? Is ard RM392. Guess this was the most expensive meal that we had among the days.

The whole journey to Melaka, MingHao and BK was having the "Boss and employee" game. As BK didnt hv much RM left, so he have to "depend" on Minghao for his spending in Melaka. It was funny. He keep addressing Minghao "Yes, boss.... Must follow boss,.... I will follow whatever Boss says....." It make us realise that is no harm changing more. Must bear that in mind....!!!!

We had our breakfast at ard 9plus on Sunday morning. Wanted to go for a swim after breakfast, but I didnt have proper swim wear, so couldnt swim. They dont allow bikini ma... Haiz.... Not less than 2 hours, we had our lunch again. Went to hv the famous chicken rice at Melaka. Wow!!!! It was quite small. It's specialties is the rice. It looks like fishballs. They shaped the rice into small little balls. Each person will get 5 balls of rice. Not more or less than that. The chicken was quite "tough", but they said this is how kampong chicken tasted. Overall, I still prefer chicken rice in Singapore.

Left Melaka at abt 12.40pm, reach Singapore 4.30pm. On the way bck to Singapore, we went to hunt for durains. But no valid.. Guess is nt the season for durian yet. Hope that the trip to Mersing in 2 weeks time will hv it.

Is the first time that I had spend time with dear in foreign country. Although is just at KL and Melaka what matters to me was his company. Get to know him more during the trip. Time really flies... But there is always another trip to look forward to. Isnt that so???Guess the other trip that I am going to spend with him is the trip to Mersing with the nuahz cyclist. It will be fun.... :)

Sense of security

2006-03-30T18:37:00.000+08:00

=29th March 06=

What's the meaning of Sense of security to you? I guess woman and men have different point of view on this issue.

For men's, they must have a stable career, mentally more stable than you, financially stable. We, women will definitely have a sense of security. Right?

As for women's, I really have no idea. Stuck with it.

On the way home from Bedok, dear suddenly asked me " Have you ever wonder that did you give me any sense of security？“ Wow!!! I was dumb founded. I didnt know how to react to it. Is my first time a guy actually told me that he couldnt get a sense of security from me. No joke man.

Guess a lot of things that I do, doesnt give him any sense of security. I remembered what he said "You will get it, when a couple is together." Is the matter of time. You cant get this feeling when you are just at the friends stage. I got him wrong and I made a BIG whooha about it. Saying a lot of stupid stuff. Guess it hurt dear alot. But I really cant get it initally. At the end, everything is fine. Dear need time to get used to my way of living.

Time will prove anything. So will just let time do the miracles for us. :)

First time been to Sergaroon Garden to Have dinner

2006-03-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

=22nd March 06=

For the past week till now, I had been so tired and tired. Guess no other words can describe how I feels. A new job, a new environment, new colleagues that I have to mingle with. Was worried that I couldnt adapt to this new environment. Coz merchandising is not my expertise. So is my very first time expose to this trade. But dear dear is there to "encourage" me. He keeps thinking that I am giving too much stress upon myself. I guess so too. At times, many info juz keep loading to my "little" brain of mine. My head juz couldnt take it. He saw it day by day how I progress. From everytime when I meet him after work, I will say "Dear, I very stress leh!!" Guess he got so sick of it. Of course, at the same time he was also worried for me. Is his first time see me so stress.... Guess my previous job let me nuah too much.

I jux want to say to my dear... THANK YOU!!!!

Dinner at Sergaroon Garden is nice. A lot of variety of foods to choose. We have hokkie mee, fried carrot cake and chicken wings. Sedap ya!!! Thumbs up. Thers is also a lot of restaurant like perikartan, russie, sushi tei, coffe bean and many more. Like a food paradise.

Dear dear always say I live in a well. As most of the time, whenever he ask me... This place you hv been to? Or wherever lar.. I don't even know where it is!!! Argh!!!!!! He always says "What have you been doing for the past twenty over years??"

After dinner went over to dear's hse. Couldn't believe dear dozed off in split seconds. I was amazed... Hmm... It seems that dear dozed off faster than me. :P

Going to sleep liao... Tata....

Update of my activities during weekend

2006-03-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

=3th Mar o6=

The nuah ppl went to velvet to hv some drinks. Guess what? First time saw my dear dear dancing. I thought ta bei gong dont normally dance one... Just sit down there nad doesnt move.... Hee Hee... Overall, we didnt stay till very late. Both of us dun like tt place very much.

Actually, ealier on, we went over to his friend's place to hv some drinks. I did something wrong. I didnt tell him that I went for a job interview and I got the new job. Dear dear was worried for me, as he thought what happened in the office? Why there's a sudden for me to change job?

Dear dear... I didnt it mean for not telling u de. And I did respect u alot, is just that I want things get confirm le then tell u ma. I didnt mean for not telling you de.... Forgive me ya...!

After velvet, dear dear send me home to get my stuffs over the wkends. Reach dear dear's hse at ard 3am! Settled down at abt 4am ba. Den dose off to zzzzz.... Coz tml we r heading down to the beach b4 we went for his buddy wedding at Shangri-La Hotel.

=4th Mar 06=

First time took train from Hougang with dear dear. Coz normally dear dear reached beach at abt 330 ma. So, today we head down to the beach w/o any transport. Weather is damn hot. Guess both of us will not get sun-burnt. Later still hv a weddinfg dinner to attend ma. Too tanned not good ma. To my surprise, dear dear bum ball with us leh, which on a normal basis he is damn laid bck... So nuah at the beach n hardly bum or plyed in any of the matches. But I guess is my prescence that make him to change. But I didnt expect him to change totally lar.. I just want him to be himself... I want him to be happy ya!! That's the most important de.

We left early, at ard 4pm ba. The jorney bck home is damn far n long... Get used to his car... So so long that I had took the blue line bus out of the beach and transfer the harbourfront bus out. It was so hot and the air-con of the buses is not functionally probably. Get so frustated.... Both of us dozed off on the train when we r on the way bck... Guess both of us too tired le ba...

Wedding dinner time....

Is my first time been to Shangri-La hotel. It was pretty nice. The ballroom was well-decorated. Personally, I like the decoration for the wedding. There's were 40 tables for his buddy wedding. Guess he had spend quite a bit for this wedding ba. Their photos taken was nice. Especially I like those pic taken at the train track. Was nice...

Sweetness and more sweetness to come

2006-02-28T23:32:00.000+08:00

Guess it pretty long that I had blogged. I was busy, so couldnt managed to blog it. But I guess it's also laziness that creep into me It just somehow made me feel so tired to blog at times, not like in the past.

Good news everyone... My sweetness start knocking on my door on this year Valentine's Day. It really make me feel so fortunte.... Really... First of all, I didnt except that he would go to flourist to ask about my fav flower-> Hai Yu. Guess he is the first one who did it. As this flower you have to pre-order, otherwise you cant get it on that day itself. I was very touched. Seriously, I am touched deep down in my heart. But didnt tell him. Guess I just smile back.

But the funniest part is how we got together. It was through the phone by me asking "Ivan, do you have things to tell/ask me?" It was all misunderstanding. I am too blurr le lar... Really a blurr sotong!! Hope he don't mind falling in love with a big blurr sotong!! Heee Heee....

Guess from that day onwards, we meet alomst everyday, w/o fail regards of rain or shine. Guess every new relationship, it will go through the same process. But in actual fact, I am scare. Real scare.. Scare all these will end soon. The sweetness, tender, love, care and many more.... Today, we went to watch movie [Final Destination 3] @ PS. Then came to realize that dear like to eat penang laksa. Hmm.... I will try to ask my mum how to cook. So that in the future I can prepare for him ma... Not everyone like to eat penang laksa one. Finally find someone that can share it with me.. Heee....

But what I can say is he is very very sweet. Guess many of first time when I am with my dear dear. Here goes the list: - first time have dinner @ Bedok to have the famous BCM
- first time went to adam rd to hv dinner
- first time been to the Cage @ Kallang to watch him play soccer
- first time swim in a Club
- first time went to see the Airshow @ Changi

Guess there will be more to come. :)

Getting nervous and yet excited about my first overseas trip

2006-01-15T00:50:00.000+08:00

=14th Jan 06, Saturday=
Today go to the beach to have my "last" vollyball at the beach. As I am not in Singapore till 24th Jan 06(Tuesday). Why? Hmm... Coz I am @ Taipei ya!!! Back to my time @ the beach. The weather is good for the first half day. It is bright and sunny, good for "touching up" my tanned. Oh well, good things don't last. It started pouring @ second half of the day. But the rain didnt stop us from playing. We played in the rain. I just pray that I wont fall sick after the games. As I will be travelling, falling sick will be a "trouble". We have lots of fun and laughter. Really enjoy it. But I guess next week I wont be around to have my usual vollyball session with my freinds.

At around 7.30pm, Cheryl, Damen, Liang Xing, Joyce, Ken and I go over to Bukit Timah food centre where there is a store that Andy and his wife, Linda was "working" there. So went over to have oue support and in the meanwhile to have our dinner. Guess what we have for dinner?? Hmm... Is one of my favourites-> Sting Ray with the chilli!!! Yummy...!! Like super damn long never order this dish. Hmm.. Have a good meal before I fly off to Taipei. We still have other dishes like sambal sotong, black pepper crayfish, kai lan, mixed vegetables. We even order a plate of satay meehoon and a plate of fried carrotcake. Very sinful right?? Oh no!!!! I DUN WANT TO GET FAT!!!!

Have chill out with them @ there. Head home after that. I am so so tired. Guess had played too much @ the beach. Most importantly, I have not pack my luagge bag yet which is I am travelling tomorrow. Panicked for me??

Reach home at around 10pm. Quickly take a quick bathe and start packing my luagge bag. I am feeling excited about it. Is very very excited and yet nervous. Excited about lots of things like is my first time flying to Taipei, first time on aeroplane, first time travel to KL alone to meet my boss. Worried about the weather, don't know it will get better @ Taipei?? I hope it does!!! Nervous about meeting people. One of them is David Tao, he is a SUPER BIG STAR lar... Must really know how to carry myself well. Will meet alot of musicians from various country. Oh no.. The list goes on and on.. Simply butterflies in my stomach. I cant pen it all down. Guess is too much. Don't know you all can understand how I feel???

Guess I am too excited about the trip and I cant sleep. Oh well, will be a long time that I wont be able to blog it. I promise whem I get back I will blog about my trip to Taipei and with lots of photo ya.. Will miss u all!!! Muack, Muack!!!

Over the weekends

2006-01-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

=7th Jan 06=

It rained. A day for my beachvollyball. Hardly see the sun for the past few days. It nade me so glummy. Doesant quite like raining days. Just hope that the sunny weather will be back soon.

At the end, still go down to ssb to have my vollyball session. Beach line was no longer in service. Now, getting to ssb is even longer. We have to take blue line bus. followed by taking the beach tram at the beach station, which is near the beach carpark. So troublesome!!!!! But, there will be a coffee bean at the beach station. Hee... So, next time, when we have cravings for coffee, we know where to get it. (",)

Played in the rained. Hope that I will not fall sick. My hair looked like maggie mee. All of the regulars were making fun of my hair. Keep shouting "I want wan tan mee" or "Shui Jiao Mian"! Oh no!!! My hair is in a mess.

The rain went on and off. Is really a very bad weather to play vollyball. Guess we are mad beach goers. Heee....

After beachvollyball, went over to cineleisure to meet my sec sch friends @ Yuki Yaki to have steamboat and ice-cream. The steamboat was okie, but the ice-cream we have to "cook" it before we can have it. It doesnt seem logical, as normally we will have our ice-cream from cones, or tubs. This time round, we have to pour the ice-cream mixture into the cooler, and let the mixture to freeze it. In the meantime, we have to keep "stirring" the mixture. Otherwise, the mixture will get to "froxen", is real hard to eat. One good thing about the ice-cream is that IS NOT THAT FATTENING!!! Good right? Hee.. Got alot of flavours-> Orange sorbet, orange juice, green apple, coffee, strawberry, chocolate, almond, mango, honeydew, banana and guess still got a few but cant remember le.

Have a nice chill out with them. Time flies and the group of us had know each other for 10 years!! 10 years leh...

=8th Jan 06=

Guess what? It had rained for the whole day. Cant imagine that.

Today is my first lesson of my confirmation class, will end @ 12th March 06. Looking forward to that!
Went to catch movie with Candice, Alvin, Marie, Rebecca, HuiLing, Pamela, Pei Yu, Shu Hei and his sister. The movie was still okie, (Walles and Gells), guess this is how it spell. The movie was alright but find it a bit expensive to watch it on weekends.

After movie, all of us went to Bali house to have our dinner. Heard from Marie and Rebecca that it was Althea favourite hang out place. The amibence of the restaurant is nice, but the rained had "spoiled" everything. When we were eating and chit chatting, suddenly Rebecca keep on screaming "Got lizard on my leg, got lizard on my leg"!! And her scream was very sharp and loud. All of us were astonished, we couldnt do anything to help her. The lizard was on her leg. Is not appropriate lar...

A New Year, a new beginning

2006-01-03T23:51:00.000+08:00

For the past 2 days, I had been eating alot of foods. I think it started from New Year Day. I had a cell lunch at Pasta Fresco. The restaruant was quite empty, but the food was nice, serving portion was HUGE!! After having our lunch, whole working cell went to chill out at coffee club which outlet suited at harbourfront. Not many people, saw my poly mates working there. The first thing that came across my mind is-> Do I have a discount of odering??? I am so bad right???

Was quite alot of fun there. But stomach a bit full. Didnt have my dinner on that day.

Then following on consecutive 2 days, I met up with the producer that I always wanted to meet. Finally, he had touched down at Singapore. Yesterday, we will chilling out @ Acid bar, having cedsar grilled chicken salad, ribs, chicken wings, beers and hard liquors and even there is a life band there. Interesting!! Have a lot of fun there. Meet new friends, enjoy myself.

Today, I was again chilling out with the producer. This time round, he bring us to an Indian restaurant at Little India to have our dinner. Nice food!!! Next time, I will bring u all there. Damn nice... Really like the food there. But those people who cant take hot and spicy foods.... Then too bad, guess you would have to drink plenty of lime juice to quench the hotness!!! Hee... After the dinner, we atill have our chilling session @ the cafe @ borders. Talked alot of serious stuff of my job. Like what am I going to and how many people that I am going to meet. Is interesting,. but the bad thing about this job is that I have to travel alot!!! But I will have great exposure on the music industry...

Ate quite alot of food rite? Hmm... Need to have serious workout to burn off those calories... Coz maybe, maybe I will be travelling with the band and the producer to Taipei for David Tao concert.

Went to see Doctor to pull out my nail

2005-12-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

Went to work after the long weekend holidays. As I mention earlier on my previous post, I hutr my toe. So, I was telling one of my colleagues of how I got hurt. After that, all of them ask me to see doctor. Is no joke man. One of the colleague's daughter was MC for 2 weeks because of this.

Wow!!! Is that really so serious? This sentence keep ringing in my mind. While I was working, I copuldnt even concentrate. Most of the time I was thinking whether I should go and see the doctor ma??

Finally, the decision is made. I went to see during my lunch time.

Wow!! Is so damn pain.. The whole nail was being pull out w/o any anseptic jab. I was screaming lar.. Can u imagine that?? I saw alot of blood oozing out! So damn scary. Now, toe is very very pain... Given 2 days MC to rest. I hope the nail will grow back. Otherwise what am I suppose to do??

What am I doing on the 24th Dec and 25th Dec 2005

2005-12-26T10:10:00.000+08:00

=24th Dec2005=

Is the Eve of Christmas Day, and it's fall on Saturday. Alot of my beach friends had msg me and keep asking me to go down to the beach. Like Nigel n Huilong who is not there every sat. They went down. Hmm... Although I misses them and was glad that they are at the beach, I cant go. Coz today my church have events from 3.30 till 6.30pm. Then after that the whole youth will be going down to orchard to do ushering. So I cant really go. Is a long time that I have contribute to church activities. Every Saturday, I will be at the beach. And u hardly see me at church. I was glad that I had made this choice. :)

The working youth cell was the servers for the events. So was quite busy serving foods. The buffet had our all thime favourites->ECLAIRS!! My favourite man!! Guess ate quite a few. Was so nice, just couldnt stop eating it. Soon after the celebrations, is time for us to head down to orchard to meet pastor for our duties.

My group was being called upon to do duties @ Paragroon. Wow!! Alot of people, was crowded. I hate it man. Was giving out pamplets to the crowd. But most of the people took the pamplets to fan themselves. Haiz... In the midst of giving out, we even went for our dinner @ Macondald's!! Fun rite? Hee... Cant control lar.. Was hungry need to answer my call from my stomach.. Hee.... BUT BUT!! Even Mac also was packed with people. Guess what?? This was my first time that I couldnt feel any air-con from its premises. Really!!! Guess it was too crowded. But at the end, we still managed to find a place to sit down and had our dinner.

After dinner, something "big" happen to me!! My toe was bleeding and the nail is on the edge of coming out. Oh no!! Is very painful.. Really!! But I hold back and acted like no big deal. Oh no!!!! What am I suppose to do???

Still continue to do the duties. Soon after there is no more pamplets for us to be given out. So we went to have coffee session @ starbucks. Hmm... Seems that we were relaxing ourselves ya!! :) But good times doesnt last long. Not long, Denny called Si Er and said that they need more people to be human barrier to contro the crowd as they had been spraying non-stop to the stage. So we went! I hate it man!! I kinda alot of the spary while on the way there. It was not a very nice feeling. I really hate it. Remember I had scolded a guy like nobody business. Mabel was "shocked" that I scolded that guy. Hee... :) My new bag was being "destroy" by them too. There was color stain on my bag!!!!!!!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally, is time to go home. Really wish that I were at home. Reach home @ about 12.30am. Guess too tired le.. Tml still have service to attend. Nite everyone...

=25th Dec 2005=

Hey Everyone... Is Christmas Day!! Still remember that last year Christmas, I was one of the performers. Waking up early to doll up and get ourselves prepare for the performance. Guess time really flies. Now, I am one of the audience to watch the performance. The feeling was good. :) Met Ivy at the bus to go for service together. Reached German centre at about 10am ba. Just nice to find a nice seat and enjoy the service. Hee.. Both of us were sitting in front of the stage so that we could have a nice view. Is rare coz most of the time, those seats were given to the guest rather than our own people lar.

As a whole, the performance is nice. The youth have perform a dance. Was nice. Joannie you had done a good job ya! Applaud!!!!! The toddlers were cute!! Envy!! The adults performance was touching. I was touched and almost cried.

Not long, is luch time ya. Happy. Wow!! But is in a mess lar.. Coz most of the youth were running around looking for people to exchange gifts. But that is fun!!!! :) Guess I had received alot of chocolates and sweets! :) But thanks everyone!!! *Muack*

Ivy, Cindy and I went to West Mall, Coffee Bean to chill out. Was such long time that we have chill out. It was nice. Really missed those time... :)

Guess I had enjoyed myself for this year Christmas!! Hope that next year. it will be better!!!

Both weekends were at the beach

2005-12-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

I have been down @ the beach during the weekends. There is a beach vollyball tournament held @ ssb. It is organised by NTUC. Cool right?

The weather is pretty for the competition. Although it is quite hot in the afternoon, the heat subsided and the players won't feel so exhausted. All the players are tired, they have to reach ssb @ 9am for both days. It's hard on them and the tournament lasted almost the whole day. Lucky it had ended. :)

Bum a lot of balls.

Now slowly getting back to the nuah's group people. Bumming balls with them and have dinner with Hendry, Steven and Qi Wei. I hope this is a good start. Since the break up with Samson, I have not been chilling out with them. Feel so awkward. I still can hear news about him through the common friends that we have. I don't know is a good or a bad thing. I want to forgo everything and start anew.

God are u willing to give me this chance to start anew?
I don't want to do or whatever thingy with him anymore.
Please help!!!!!!!

Sprained my ankle from youth camp

2005-12-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

Was away from home @ 9th Dec to 12th Dec 2005.

It is because..... It's our youth camp->Black or white?? Who decides??

The topic covered indeed benefit me. Still remember onr of the lesson was talking about The Parable of Sower. I really gave it a thought whether I am a seed on the thorn, rock or good soil? It's hard to always be on the good soil, but I will definitely try my best to be the seeds that was scattered on the best soil so that it will yield good crops.

Weather is not bad... But the noise that keep on beeping in our room lead us to black eyes.. So lifeless...
Last night of the cramp, I cried.. due to a stupid game lar.. I had blue blacks on my upper thighs.. How am I going to wear my shorts?? Oh no!!! Is so so painful.. All thanks to Augustine and Jethro!!!! Some more on coming friday, 16th Dec 2005, I am going to Bangkok lar.. What am I suppose to do???

Was quite disappointed about this year youth camp. A lot of people just go in and out of the camp. Is just like "part time" camp. Bonds build between us is not strong. Real pity and I feel utterly sad about it.

Once again, I had sprained my ankle. Very swollen.. Thanks God that Celine was there with me when I went for the consulation @ Eu Ren Sen. Thanks Celine... :)

I just hope that next year youth camp will be better.. But who knows?? Maybe this year is my last year joining youth camp...

What a day man??

2005-12-09T09:43:00.000+08:00

Guess what happened to me on sunday, 4th December 2005

Here goes.....
After service, Cindy and I went over to Bugis for shopping. Been happily shopping, and hearing the christmas songs... really it spur us to have the shopping mood. It was all so nice till one incident happened @ Bugis village. Argh!!!!! There is a man, who is a blackfrom South America came to approach me to ask for my number. But you know what's the picking line?? "Are you a Malay-Singaporean????"

Huh??? What's that again??? Pardon you...!!! Excuess mmmeeeee... Do I look like a malay to you?? Hey, is not about racis here, but this is not the first time. Haiz... It scared us. We don't even dare to look back and the worst thing is that both of us haven finish shopping!!!!!!!!! What a day man....!!!!

Meet Ivy and told her about this incident, she is laughing all the way. Worst!!!

Cindy, Ivy and I went over to Shu Hei's 21st Birthday Party. We watched the Star Awards there. It was fun, as they were a lot of people watchig together. We bitch about which artiste not looking good, their clothings they wore on that night and blah blah... Up to your imagination what we can talk about. Hee.. Grins.....

Was a good day except the moments @ Bugis Village.. Hope I have a nice day ahead..!!!

Everything is over by now

2005-12-03T10:48:00.000+08:00

Yup!! Everthing is over by now.

Back to God! The feeling is so so good. Although I had left the church for 3 months, the friends that I had @ the church still stand by my side. I am really glad that they have never give up on me. Thanks girls!! Really appreciated.

Oh Dear Father,
I know I had did wrong in the past.
I just wish that here I am standing right in front of you to astonish my wrongdoing.
Do you ever forgive me?
You had send ppl around me to warn me, but I chose not to listen.
Now, I just hope that it will not be too late to repent.

For the past few months of my life, all in a mess. Now, I just pray for peacefulness in my life. I really need that.

Friends who are there for me when I am down, here goes my sincere graditute to you all!!!!

Although memories cant fade away or erase of my mind, I hope that as time goes by I will be feeling better. After healing, guess will a wound there. But as I see the wound, it will definitely warn me of the things that I did. Once bitten twice shy...!! Isnt that so?

Oh Dear Heavenly Father,
As I am afraid, I know that You will always be there for me.. To protect,guide me!!! Amen....

No more beachvollyball for me le!!!!!!!!!

2005-10-29T08:59:00.000+08:00

Guess today is going to be the last weekend I can go down to the beach to have my beachvollyball session. Really strangle alot alot... The pain that I am going to "lose" this sport!!!!!! Crying... Tears roll down my cheeks... I cant let it go.... Alot of things I will definitely miss... Like the sun, the sea-breeze, friends, last but not least MY BABY!!!!!!!! This is onli the day that I could spend with him the whole day, guess there will be no more from today onwards...

I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT!!!!!!!!! WHO CAN UNDERSTAND THAT?????????

But I got no choice. I have a job awaiting for me.... Nutritionist for Bioskin-> Start work on the 2nd Nov 05
Looking forward to it. Alot of challenges.... But I have to work on weekends and even public holidays. I don;t have as much time as before to company my baby le... Even to my family and friends too... I just hope that you all can understand. I need a serious job.. I want to see myself to have a good carrer and in a few years time, I can see myself climbling up the coporate ladder... I really want to see myself to go towards that goal of mine...

Accompany Baby to attend his Dinner and Dance @ Fort Canning

2005-10-16T02:55:00.000+08:00

It was raining heavily. Really good for sleeping and lazzing at home to relax.
Baby and I woke up quite late, guess at around 11 plus to 12 noon.
Met up with Joe to have breakfast cum lunch.

Hee... After the breakfast cum lunch..... IT'S DOLL UP TIME!!!!!!!!!!
Need to attend his dinner and dance. I am wearing a brown tube with white pants. Nice hor.. :)
I took 1 an hour to doll up myself. Baby cant wait, keep on saying "Wow!!! You really can used 1 hour to doll up yourself". Hee... Girls is like that one ma.... There is more to come.. :)

Joe's came to pick us up at 330pm. It was still pouring. Really hate this weather. Hello!!!!!!! Its raining, and the dinner is held at fort canning park. Oh my god ya.. Is that a good place to held function?? Who knows??

I just couldnt imagine that we have to CLIMB up the stairs. My legs are still aching from yesterday running cum training. So, is tough for me. If not becox of the cramps, all these stairs are not a burden to me. Serious no joke. Baby can sees that I am tired and exhausted.. But he cant do much. The only thing that could solve all these "miserable" feelings is to reach there A.S.A.P!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally we had reached!!!!

The theme for tonight D & D is TRIBAL! But no one wear any clothes related to the theme. Funny right? Dinner is served as buffet style. Food is not bad lar... What can you expect much from this? Right? I like the dessert... Real nice.. Especially the pastry corner.. I ate alot.. :)

Have lots of laughter from the [MANHUNT!!] Is real funny.. 6 guys are being chosen for this event. They have to strip of their clothes and so 6 poses infront of us. Some of them are so "girlie". I couldnt stand it. My hairs and follicles all stand up!!! Plus the weather damn cold..

Too bad we didnt managed to bring one of the presents back from the lucky draw. Guess we have to wait till next year round. Nite everyone...

Wake up super early to watch vollyball match held at Esplande-WaterFest

2005-10-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

Waking up at Jessica's hall at ard 8am!!! That's super super early. Jess n I woke up first, whereas Jeannie was still lazzing in bed. Jonathan was late. He couldnt make it to meet us to go to esplande to watch the vollyball match. Too bad ya....

The 3 of us dont know how to get to esplande by car. So went online to find a map to lead us there. Hee... But at the end, we MAKE it!!!

When we reached, the girls team had already started their match. They had represented Singapore to play against Newzeland!! Cool right??? But the amount of effort they had put in for this match is alot.. Alot of late nights trainning at sentosa. Sees them trained so hard just for this day. Is worth it.. Really.. Although the girls had lost their game, the guys and mix group had won!!! So, overall we won!!! Huarry Singapore!!! We won!!!! We WON!!!!!! Happy for them!!

As usual, what do you think after the match where we will be heading to?? Of course is the beach. Reach there at abt 1230pm. Baby was at the beach earlier with Justin, Patrick, Alfred and the "nuah" group.

Today had a tiring day.. I had ran from sunsetbay to the visitor centre back and forth. The weather is hot, keep on perspiring. Lack of stamina, no endurance especially when there is a slope that we need to run through. Was real tough for me. Need to train coz there will be a tournment at Nov-which entilted to all youths who is below the age of 23. Guess need to train more harder ya...

Baby falling sick le but I feel guilty

2005-10-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

Baby had a long day. He had just ended his work. Hurray!! Saturday leh.. Can go down to the beach to train my vollyball. Weather not that good. Just before I go out, it started to rain!!!! Oh no... But recently, the weather had been like this. Rain n rain n rain. Hate it when it rained. I cant train for my vollyball.. Argghhhh....

Meet up with baby at PS to have lunch b4 we go into ssb. But suddenly, baby is so restless. He seems to fall sick. His hands are so cold. Guess he must catch a cold. But I feel so sad, not becoz he is sick. Is I know that I couldnt go down to the beach to train my vollyball. M I bad? I guess I am. But my first priority is still my baby. Coz even I been down to the beach, I guess I couldnt even focused playing. I will definitely Been thinking of him, whether he is feeling better, does he need my company??

At the end, both of us never go down to beach. Simply, my baby need to rest. Yes.. Plenty of rest.. Is my first time sees my baby so restless. Is just not him.. I feel so guilty... I shouldnt keep thinking of going to beach.. How could I???

We went to carrfour to buy some medicine. I just hope that after some medication and plenty of rest, my baby will recover soon. Baby.. Dont worry ya. I will be there for you ya.. :)

Baby keep on apologising to me saying that "Not becoz of me, you will be at the beach playing your vollyball le, coz I know hardly there is time for you to play vollyball. The onli day that you can play is SAT!!!" He just keep on apolosing to me. It make me feel more guilty!!!! Why you dote me so much????
BABY I AM SORRY!! UTTERLY SORRY!!!

Chilling out @ TCC with the beach babes and hunks

2005-09-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

What I have done for today???

->Go Ikea to view furniture with baby.
->Go to RELC for my payment for EPT.
->Meet up Justin for movie @ Cineleisure (The Myth).
->Meet up Jeannie n Jessica and the rest @ TCC to chill out.

We have lots of laughter and photos taken at tcc. Think we chill till the cafe closed. Isnt that too late? Tml still have to report for work. Haiz.. Cant bear to leave them as we hardly get the chance to have the time to chill out.

Justin and baby took cab home and as for Jeannie and me, we took a car ride from Jessica. In between the ride home, Jeannie took over. Come on... She dun hv license leh!!! I don't want to die so young!!! Help!!!! But she is steady leh.. Hmm... Maybe next time I should give it a try.. Hor? Who knows???

Girls Beachvollyball Competition

2005-09-24T02:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, finally, finally... The day that I can have the chance to see all the girls that can play beach vollyball well.

Weather is exrememly hot. Guess we drink more than we eat. Some of the players even wear socks to play.

Before even the competition start, my stomach is full of butterflies. I cant stop myself from getting nervous and yet excited. Oh no!! That kind of feeling is hard to explain. Jeannie is the one who keep on telling me that "Hey, after all, is just a competition, if we lost, just take as it is." She keep on comforting me. Lucky, she is there for me. Coz, even if we are nervous.. We cant show it to the opponents, so hard.. Real hard...

But after all, we lost. Some of the angle balls I still cant received it well, caused Jeannie has to run for the ball. First touch is not good, still need to train more, spiking is also not good either.

But we have lots of fun taking photos....

=Jeannie and ZhenRu=

=Formal Pic=

=Lesbians kisses=

Have lots of laughter.
Towards sunset, Jeannie, Jessica, Wei Xing and I play imaginary net beach vollyball. Wow!! That's so cool.. Everyone at the beach think that the 4 of us must be crazy. "No net, how to play vollyball??" But we did!!! Great fun, lots of laughter.. You just couldnt imagine how we played with it. Wei Xing and I won!!! Hurrary!!!

How I wish baby is here to see my competition. Missed him badly.

First Day work at LianHua Pri Sch

2005-09-20T16:39:00.000+08:00

It had been so long that I have to wake up at 6.45am!!!!!! That is super early for me. Really cant get used to this timing. I dragged myself to the bathroom. Seeing my siblings are still sleeping soundly in their sweet and cosy bed. How I wish I can be like them. No need to work and earn a living for themselves.

Hey guess what? It had been ages that I eaten the bread which is in green and pink colour, in between there is a layer of cream. Superb ya!!! It brought back alot of memories. 14 years ago, I am still schooling in primary level. Booo.. Time really flies and now, I am slowly starting to enter the other side of the world!! The very ugly side of the world. I hate it. I dislike it.

Lunch time is at 12noon. Called up baby to tell him how's my first day. Chatted for awhile. Start missing him. Missed those days that I could see him almost everyday. Missed those days that I have my vollyball training, seeing the both of us at ssb almost everyday. Haiz... How I wish I could freeze the time!!!!! BUT I KNOW I CANT!

Memories of me and baby at ssb......

To my dearest sweetest baby,

Guess have to miss you badly. I cant be there with you every now and then, no more lots of training, chatting, laughter, chilling out, hugging, kisses, seeing your loving eyes, the way that you imitatite me and so many more. The list just can go on and on... Simply just too much for me to pen it down. You are just full of surprises and most importantly is your tender, love and care that you have showered over me for the past 2 months. Really appreciated that!!!!

Update of me from 2nd Sept till 18 Sept 05

2005-09-19T14:05:00.000+08:00

2nd Sept to 7th Sept05
Almost everyday, I have been at ssb to play beach vollyball with baby, justin, patrick, jess and jeannie. Was prety tired from all the games and utmost, I got darker and darker.

8th Sept05
Attended Terry's Wedding with Baby at Pan Pacific Hotel. Baby is one of his "brothers". So, he is quite busy for that day. Lucky that I have Patrick and Justin to accompany me. Otherwise I will be "bored" to DEATH!!!

First time sees Justin get drunk. He drank quite a lot. I get so worried. Towards the end of the dinner, he vomitied. At the end, Baby and I sent him back home and after that both of us went back to stay overnight at he hotel.

The room is nice and cosy. Baby and I was in the bath tube for an hour. (I guess lar). Was real shiok!! Really enjoy myself. Baby and I cant get to sleep. So, watched SCV channels. Guess we switched on the tv till morning.

9th Sept05
Baby is so sweet. Wake up super early to go buy Mcdonalds Breakfast. Alot of people find it weird to see him wearing t-shirt n shorts walking at suntec. Coz baby forgot that today is friday and people is still working on this day!!! Oh ya, almost forgot that my baby is on 2 weeks leave starting from 9th Sept till 18Sept05. Hurray!!!!

We left the hotel together with Terry at around 3pm. Went back to Terry's house b4 we head towards Chua Chu Kang to meet Adeline for teaching Baby's step daughter for a swim.

Baby's step-daughter is afraid of the water. She keep on screaming and shouting for mummy!! So poor thing. Guess have to do something to let her feel safe when she is with us. But we had fun.

Dinner at Pastamina at Causeway point. Gave baby a aurprise by buying bdae cake for him at Four Leaves.

10th Sept 05
It's Baby 27th Birthday. Baby's dad has prepared a meal for the whole family. He also buy a bdae cake for him. All of us sand him a bdae song. Was so funny. After cutting the cake, baby and I went down to ssb to play vollyball. Was so tired.

12th, 14,15 and 17th Sept 05
Baby and I have been at ssb to play beach vollyball. On the 17th Sept, we have a mini vollyball competition held at ssb. It is organised by the "Nuah" Group. Guess wat? We have to reach ssb at 8.15!!!! So early.... No ppl will go down to ssb so early lar.. Only us lor.. Siao ppl.. So, baby and I meet up with Justin at 7am at Bedok Bus Interchange. Then headed over to harbourfront Mcdonalds to meet up with Patrick to buy breakfast. We are the early birds lor. No one is there, except us. Beach is so so so quiet!! Cant really get usedto it. All the couples are in a team. So that means that Baby and I are in 1 team. Whereas the rest have to drawlot for their partner. Ladies get the chance to choose first. Is fun... But is just way too early..

In the night, Jeannie and I played some fire works, having some mooncakes. Coz tml is mooncake festival!!! Have alot of fun. Alot of the regulars stay back at ssb to post celebrate this festival. They played games like zero-point (which I had played in my pri sch days lar), lanterns, fireworks and many more....

No More Job for me for a certain period of time

2005-09-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

Starting from the 1st Sept, I will be free. Hmm... Finally there is holiday for me!!! And also spend more time on my beachvollyball n with my baby too.

Must Train hard for the upcoming competiton ya.

Jeannie 20th Bdae

2005-08-29T13:47:00.000+08:00

Meet up baby for breakfast at PS Macdonald. As usual I was late. But he is always be there waited patiently for me w/o any complaint. He had ordered one of my favourites->Sausage Egg Muffin and he has hotcake.

Chatted alot of stuff. I was telling him how stress I am when I went for my service during Sunday. I really don't know what to do. Seriously, it beat me down on hard ground. I love God!! Definitely I do.... He have give me strength in whatever I do. I believe in Him.. Still remember what Huiling had told me "He is a tempetation that God have put me in the test"!!!! This sentence keep ringing in my head. What am I suppose to do??? Please!! Please!!!

But whatever it is, is my decision to decide what to do with it. I will bear the consequence.

After having breakfast, we go ahead to breadtalk to buy a small piece of cake for Jeannie. She doesnt know that both of us are heading to ssb today, as well as for Justin and Patrick. All of us wanted to give her a surprise. Hee~~

She is happy to see us there. We sang her a birthday song. Her face is red! So cute! Like she feel so pai seh.. Unexpectedly, Kenneth is oso down at ssb today.

Played alot of matches at ssb. Being pair up with baby to play. Yeahhh!!! Finally, I have improved. Tremendously!!!! Serious, no joke k? Seems all my effort is not wasted. Hee... :) Managed to play 2 verses 2 without any major mistake. But there is still room for improvement. Need to work extra hard ya!!! So that in the future I can pair up with my baby to play real matches at ssb.

Was really tired from all the match that we played. The tiredness had caused us to lose concentration. Cant really focus well and since the both of us are exhausted, both of us just simply lazy to run for the ball. This is bad! Real bad! But we are real TIRED!!!

No Joke.. Seriously drop dead. Today dive alot of balls. Real tired, skin on the lower part of the leg peel off. The sand is rough, it rub off the outer layer.. Gone case for my leg le...

Dinner was nian tou fou.. Healthy rite? Plus not forgetting our sugar cane drink!!!! After that Patrick, Justin, Baby and I went to chill out at HarbourFront Maconald. I had my hot fludge with extra chocolate!!! Kekekeek... Super nice and Yummy!!!! Simply love it!!! Coz I love chocolate, so does baby. We even play Big 2 at Macdonald. Hee.. So nice of the manager that they didnt asked us to keep the cards away. So sweet rite?

Reach home at ard 11pm. Real tired... Chatted with baby awhile b4 I dozzzeeeeee off......

Went to ssb alone w/o my babay company

2005-08-27T01:35:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... Today is SATURDAY!!!!! Is always have been the day that I always looking forward to. I can have my beach vollyball at ssb. Really love it sooo mmmuuccchhhh.

When I am about to knock off from my work, my boss commented that I looked so "DARK"!! She even asked me to put on sun block, She even said that "Can you imagine that if you don't put on the block, you will age faster". I don't even care about this. Is not that I tanned myself on purpose, is just that I got this colour when I was playing vollyball. What can I do then?

Reach ssb at around 2pm. There a competition held there. So, quite alot of people, but the regulars seems to cut down quite alot. Guess must be the competition had taken some of the courts. That's why some of the regulars didn't come. Saw Joyce and the rest of the regulars that I am much familiar with->Ken, Andy, Lan Xing, Jason, Kenneth, Cheryl and ....... Too many to list down.

Misses Jeannie. She didnt come to ssb today. She is out of town, misses her badly.
Misses my baby too!!! Ever since the day that we had been together, I had been down to ssb with him and his group of friends->Alfred, Jeff, Patrick and Justin. We became closer and closer. As for today, none of them appear at the beach. All of them have to WORK!!!

I really miss baby so much. Just couldnt figure ot out why? Misses every single little thing of him. Miss those vollyball session that I had with him, He teaches me everything he knows, be there for me when I am physical tired and giving me encouragement whenever I needed them most. Miss his cute little face, his cool look with his shades on, there are still many things that I miss about him. I cant pen down all of them, simply just too much!!!

Today, I bum alot of ball with Jessica. Alot of people said that my vollyball skills had improved tremendous. Some of the regulars are quite surprised. Of course they are happy for me. At least all these training that I had, it made me somewhere. I see myself moving towards it. All thanks to the regulars there at ssb, who is willing to coach me w/o any condition apply to it. They are the best!!!!

Had quite a few matches played. Nice, and I see myself improving. I will practice more, and achieve more!!!

Time flies, sun down moon up. Is time for me to pack and have dinner. Had dinner with Cheryl and her bf->David at the hawker centre near the bus-interchange. We wanted to have the tom yum noodles, but the stall didnt open today. Sob Sob.... But I still managed to have my sugar cane drink!! Is nice... I loved it!!!! Have a good chat with the both of them. Hope they dont mind that I had join them for dinner. If I wasnt there, they will be enjoying the meals together, w/o me as a "BIG" gooseberry there! Hee.. But the both of them said is fine. So sweet!! Have a great chat with them over the dinner. I am happy for them. Coz they are going to ROM at the end of this year!!! Wedding bells is coming!!!! Really happy for them. Cant wait to attend their wedding!! Hee....

Was really tired of the games and the bumming of the balls that I had today. Need to replenish myself.. Byieeee!!

Baby being so sweet!!

2005-08-23T01:42:00.000+08:00

The weather is not good.

Raining all the way. Really din't like raining days. Didnt go to work today. Meet up with baby, jeff, patrick for breakfast. Alfred is late.

Have fishballs soup, tou jiang and you tiao, a glass of milo. What a heavy breakfast I have. The weather is super damn cold. Real cool.... My body just keep shivering. Baby said I need to buy jacket. But I don't want to waste money just to buy a jacket for the weather.

But the guys insisted that I should buy one.

Finally, I got one at suntec Adidas store. Real nice but expensive too!!! But baby said is okie. He will pay for it. ~~Sooooo Sweet~~ I also bought a top there. Guess what? I am entitled to 30% off. It is from baby's sec friend who is working there who help us save quite a bit of $$ from the discount. Hee... Adidas is my favourite sports brand. Is cool and nice. Simply just love it so so muucchhh...

Not long, Justin and Thomas came to join us at cafe cartel. We wanted to have the waffle ice cream! But the ironical thingy is "THEY DIDNT SELL FOR TODAY!!!!" What a disappointment all of us have on our face.

We didn't give up pn our waffle ice cream cravings. So, we headed towards Marina Square hoping to see whether got any cafe that sells good waffle ice-cream. Yes!! Indeed we came across one of the cafe. The ambience look quite alright, but the poster they put up with their menus on look so tempeting. Especially the waffle ice cream and the mudpie!!!!

So, the whole group of us went in and give it a shoot. But the service was bad!!!!! Real bad!!!! I will never visit this cafe again!! The service is so lousy. The waitress even give us an attitude. What is this man? Halo... You are in the F & B line and you suppose to serve us with your best service. We did pay for service charge. Just do not like it. Tha's all.

We had a great time laughing all the way through. All of us are shivering.. Coz everyone of us are wearing berms and singles (guys), as for me I am wearing a pair of shorts... Just so cold, nobody dare to order any cold drinks. We just had ourwaffle ice cream there. But the scoop of the ice cream was REAL BIG!!!! Jeff's waffle was covered by the ice cream, hardly can see the waffle. The waffle is just okie. Nothing in particular. Patrick's waffle was over burnt, same goes to Alfred's waffle. Haiz... Really no standard.

Guess good times need to part. Baby and I left the rest at ard 4.30pm. Coz later part of the day, my baby had a basketball match held at Yio Chu Kang. It is played against of one the the police division.

First time sees my baby play basketball. He looks so serious. Totally, he look way different from playing vollyball. Baby was disqualified after a agruement happened in the court. Is the opposition faults!!! I saw it with my eyes. Arrgghhh.... All refrees are cock eye one lar... Hope my baby is okie. But he seems to be okie.. I was quite worried for him. As he had hurt his knee and tight from the last tournment, so was quite worried that the old injury will come back.

Reach home sooooo tired......... Time to zzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!

Celebrated Baby's Mum Birthday

2005-08-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

My baby have to work today. Is sunday you know that? Haiz..

We had Mcdonalds Breakfast at Tampines Mall. Is nice. Super long long time since the last time I had my breakfast at Mcdonalds. I had sausage Mcmuffin and baby had hotcake w sausage and a egg mumuffin. Super nice, maybe both of us are too hungry. Hee~~

Took the train back home. Baby alighting at Clementi. He need to reach NUS Culture Centre by 10.45am for his work. Later meeting baby for his mum bdae celebration.

Went home to clear my stuff, see my siblings. Missed them, chatted with them. Took a nice long shower...

Changed into jeans and white top.. Meet up with baby at Jurong Point at 2pm. We even managed to catch a movie->Bewitched before we head to bedok to meet up with his rest of the family members.

After movie, the time is still way too early. So we decided to take bus 30 all the way to Bedok. Guess what? It took us about one and a half hour to reach there. If we take train, it doesnt need so long...

Meet up the rest at 6.30pm. Is dinner time.. Yummy...
Have normal meals with his whole family. This is my very first time that I had dinner with his family. Initially, I felt so awkward, uneasy. Gradually, the feeling just subsided.

Didnt went shopping with his mum coz he need to be at his friends house to help him submit his MC. As his friend injured his hands. Real bad. Hope he is fine after the 1 month MC.

After that we went to Century Square and Tampines Mall to do some shopping before I headed home. Haiz... Whenever I think of travelling back from tampines to boon lay. It just make me so tired. It reminds me of the schooling days that I had with TP for 3 yrs!!!

Reach home at abt 11pm. Tiirreeeeddd~~~~ Need to rest early. Tml have to work...

Weather not tt good for tanning, but good for playing vollyball

2005-08-20T00:43:00.000+08:00

Hee.... This saturday, is not my turn to work. I can fully enjoy it!!!

Baby and I wake up at around 8 plus. Both of us was lazing around till around 10plus. I guess so. Have our lunch at bedok market, food there is nice. I had roasted duck noodles while he had duck rice and we share 1 plate of fried carrot cake. Hmm... seem to have too much for lunch. Guess later need to bum and play more at SSB.

We took bus 30 from bedok interchange to SSB. The weather is not that good. Was cloudy while we are on the way to SSB. But baby and I thought that it is just passing clouds, hope it doesnt rain. Haiz.. Once, we are in the bus that took us into SSB. It rained heavily. Cant even possibly see clearly what's on the road. Seem to be so misty.

What a day!!!!

There is an event at SSB-> Vollyball competition till 4pm.
Just hope that wouldnt be too crowded at SSB.

Baby and I had a cup of cafe mocha at delifrance while waiting for Jeannie and Lewis. Waited for the beach line, super damn long.

Finally, reach SSB!!!!

Baby and I run on the beach. Nice and shiok!! Both of us jogged together. In the meanwhile of jogging, perspiring, tiredness, we still managed to catch the scenery of the beach. Nice.. Cool weather too!

Really bum alot of vollyball.. So happy.. Finally, my skills improved. Reaction is much more faster, my spiking is better, but have to work hard of controlling of the balls. Need to use my leg to push up the balls instead of just using my hands. **WILL WORK HARD FOR IT** Today, my baby played quite a few matches. His performance for today is not bad. Good!! Thumbs up for u Baby!! Seeing him playing in the court is so difference. His focus on the match, the way that he enjoyed himself while playing, every single movement touched me.. OoPS!!! A bit mashy rite? Hee.. Just love him sosososoooo muuuuccchhhhh...

We left SSB at around 7pm. Had our dinner at the hawker beside the bus-interchange. I had duck noodles, while my baby had ban-mian and we shared a plate of fried oyster omettle. Yummy!!! But my baby said that the bowl of ban-mian cannot make it. So we took note of the stall and in the future, we are not going to visit that stall again.

Accompany him back to his office to get some stuff and we went to Marina Square to meet Justin and the rest of his friends at Coffee Club.

Wow!! Marina Square really changed alot.. Nice, alot of new shops.. Hmm.. Next time shall go there and do some shopping spree~~~ The air-con in coffe club was super cold.. I am freezing. Can you imagine that I am wearing a short and a tank top. How to survive... Argghhh!!! The service there is a bit slow. Waited quite long for 2 glasses of ice water. Maybe newcomers still dont know how to serve or maybe they are too busy that they had forgetten our orders.

Leave coffee club at around 10.20pm.

Went to catch bus 518 back to baby home. While we are waiting for the bus, we saw Wei Xing and Lewis. Went over to say hi to them, chatted for a while. Both of us waited for the bus like for an hour or so.. Feeling really exhausted, tired, frustrated!!!!!! Both of us are JUST DAMN TIRED!!!!!! Where is the bus????

Finally, both of us took a cab home. My shoulder blade knocked onto the sides of the cab, guess is going to have a big blue black on it. But at that moment, really wish to get to baby house and get to the bed and rest.

Have a wondeful, splendid but tiring day!!!

Having a long chat with baby @ Gelare @ PS

2005-08-18T01:46:00.000+08:00

I had a long day at work. Was feeling really tired, my eyes hardly open up. My mind couldnt focus on the screen for too long. Seeing alot of figures, more and more figures were coming.. made me feel giddy. Real giddy.. Is like my head is spinning non-stop. Furthermore, the weather was raining/drizzling. It is a good weather to slack and it make me feel like going to ssb. To enjoy the people over there, the environment, almost everything!!! I MISS SSB!!!!!!!

My baby is so sweet to message me asking "What are you going to do after work?" Supposely, we didnt plan to meet up today. As my baby is working in the night. But, he is so sww..eee..ttt... He asked whether want to have our dinner together before he goes to the office to clear some of his paper work. So, he picked me up at my office and we went ahead for our dinner.

After dinner, we took bus 65 to his work place. Initally, I thought that I will be sending him to his office, then I will go home after that. But things changed once we reached his office which is near PS. Then he asked me to wait for him for about 10-15 minutes, and after that he will be able to report off from his work, and he's free for the rest of the night.

So, I waited... Got bitten by some of the mosquitoes. Itchy!!! Hee.. But is okie...

Hmm.. After 15 minutes, my baby is down.. Is there any paper work which you can clear in 15 minutes?? Funny right? But I can say is real FAST.

Looked at our watch and it tell us that ->7.45pm!!! That's still early for us to go back home. So, we decided to go to PS and see what we can do.

Was walking in PS with aimless direction. We dont even know where to head to. Just simply enjoy the company of him. Seeing his lovely cute little eyes. Looking at his tanned, is just enough for me. Hhheeee...

Then we passed by level 3-> there is Secret Receipe, Level 5 have Gelare. Was real hard for me to choose where to chill out. Coz I like the cakes in Secret Receipe, and I love the waffles at Gelare. But as for waffles, the both of us still prefer the ones at Cafe Cartel. But the place was crowded with people. So, at the end we had chosen Gelare!!

Here, we come.. Gelare..

Ordered a cup of large cafe mocha (hot beverage) coz my baby is sick and a large waffle ice-cream with a scoop of chocolate overload. Yummy yummy... Delicious!!! But too bad, it doesnt have tiramusu..->Is both me and my baby favourites!!!!

Both of us never expected that we will be together so fast. We have a serious talk over our future and where we want out relationship to go to. Really never expect that we will have such a serious talk.

Was a bit quite shocked. But over all, the conservation that we have is good.

The interesting part is when we start asking "Hey, when did you start noticing me at the beach?"
"What is the first impression that both of us have when we first see each other?" Alot of questions just came across our mind and we have a good laugh at it. Was really funny. Cant tell the details here.. Hee...

Chatted till around the cafe closed.
It was drizzling over my area. Feeling cold when I was walking abck home.
Reach home at about 11.15pm. Quite late and baby was worried for my safety. So, gave him a call to say that I had reach home. At least he will feel at ease. Over the phone, knowing my baby is tired, we didnt chat too long on the phone. Baby need to report for work at 9am tomorrow, so am I.

HAVE A GREAT TIME WITH YOU BABY! HOPE THAT WE WILL WORK TOWARDS TO OUR GOALS TOGETHER K? LOVE YOU ALWAYS!! MUACKS...

Feeling real tirrreeeedddd.... Tatat......

Weather is gd @ Sunset Bay n I got myself a new Hp

2005-08-14T12:49:00.000+08:00

Wow!! Time really fly pass.. The day I have been looking forward..->Saturday!!!!!

Coz is the day I can go down to the beach n play my beach vollyball and some gathering with the regulars and also to get to know more and more friends.

I took a cab down to ssb with Jason. Chatted while on the way there. Jason was talking abt some issue that he faced with his gf. I hope everything will be fine for them.

Reached there quite late. I think is around at 2 o'clock? Or maybe later than that. Old, aging, cant really remember the time.

Feel so good!! The sun, the people, the sand, the wind, the air, simply just everything at Sentosa make me feels so relax and relief.

Then meet Lewis, Wei Xing, the other group of regualrs. I thought they will be down on Sunday. Was wuite surprised to see them on Sat. Chatted with them and bum balls with them. Oh no!! The sun is bright. I hv been burned. So, I must avoid it. So, meet up with Samson and the rest of his gang. Talking session cum playing poker.. Hee.. Cool huh? Playing poker cards [Big 2] at beach!!!

For today, I didnt play too much of the vollyball, just bum the ball. More kinda of relaxing myself. Haven recover from my sickness. Need to rest.

I left sentosa @ around 5 to 6pm. Going out with Samson n his gang->Wind, Patrick, Justin, Alfred. Guess never left out any of them. :)

We went over to Plaza Singapore, as Samson need to buy his new Hp->O2 Mini, which he always wanted to buy. He said tt phone suits him better. Then he uses my sony erission phone->T630 to trade in and a $100 vocher to buy. Then u all must be wondering, what phone I am going to use?? No worries... He passed over his current phone->Nokia 6680 which is a 3G phone to me to use. Although is a 2nd hand phone, he just bought it a few months back. I am alright with it. Is nice. I liked it. Thanks Samson!!! Hee...

But the queue is long. Well, is a Saturday. What do you expect?? Guess Samson and I had waited at the starhub store for almost 2 hours.

Finally, is time for dinner. We have monoglian buffet suited at Park Mall at level 4. The buffet is sucks. not nice at all and is so damn expensive. Sasmson and I said that this will be our first and last time coming to this restaruarnt!

After dinner, the whole group of us went to watch soccer match at some of the cafe at PS. Samson busy with his new hp, some of the guys are watching and the rest just simply sit down and chill out. Tiring day I have... Need to rest.. Tata~~

Sick n feeling sleeping

2005-08-12T16:32:00.000+08:00

2 weeks down.. I have been sick for so long. Can you imagine that? Have to take medication. I hate it!! But no choice.. Otherwise I couldnt get well. The cough syrup just make me drowsy.. Hardly can concentrate on my work.

Doctor even ask me not to go setosa for beach vollyball for A WEEK!!!! I couldnt do it. Seriously, I cant. Simply because I just love the sun, the beach, the games that I have and most importantly the regulars. Just couldnt obey the doctor's advice.

Sweetest things happen so sudden that I dont know whether I am doing the right decision.

Tomorrow is saturday!!! Huarry.. I can go down to the beach and have my games. :) Tata~~

Having dinner at Kenny Rogers n dessert at Gelare...

2005-08-02T00:56:00.000+08:00

Something happened at the office, my colleague, Juliana's Handphone was missing. The case is still under investigating. Hopefully, the culprit will return on his own records. My colleague have gone to file for police report. Let's see any progress from them?

Then after work, meet up with Candice and Ivy for dinner at Suntec. Actually, there are two places that we are considering for our dinner->Congress Kopitiam or Kenny Rogers. But Candice insisted to have dinner at Kenny Rogers. I was late. So, Candice and Ivy go in first. (Coz they eat real SLOW!!!!!). After having the dinner, we headed for our dessert->Gelare Ice Cream Waffle!!! Coz evert Tuesday, the waffle sells at half price. Why not grab a bite???

=the description of the water=

Here comes the waffle.......

=Candice's waffle->Flavour is Chocolate Overload with Chocolate Syrup=

=Ivy's waffle->Flavour is Chocolate Overload with maple syrup=

=Hey, it's mine!!->Flavour isChocolate Overload and Rum Raisin with maple syrup=

Nice rite? Hmm... Yummy!!! Is delicious... Really enjoy ourselves there.
Too full to even walk around. But we manage to pull ourselves up. Went for a few rounds of window shopping. Got nice clothes. Feel like spluring.. But I know I cant.. I got plans.. So, cant spend too much, must save..

Reach home at nearly 11pm.. Real tired.. I slept soundly on the train. Is Ivy who wake me up. Otherwise I will be alighting at the wrong station. Thanks for that Ivy!! Real tirrrreeeeddddd................

Disapointed n disaponited....

2005-07-30T00:46:00.000+08:00

Huarry!!! Is saturday again. Looking forward to my vollyball and tanning session at Sentosa.

This saturday I have to work half day. So, I have been staying in the office till 1pm. Suddenly, one of my agents come to the office saying "Outside raining heavily"!!!!!!! Can you imagine how I feel when I heard this????? My heart sunk deep down to the deep blue blue sea~~. I have always been waiting towards weekends. As this is the only time that I can do the things that I love/like. Guess is just not my luck today. For the past few days, the weather is good, real good. Sun is bright up in the sky, hardly can see any clouds. BUT WHY?? RAIN COME TODAY????

I keep on praying that the rain will stop. No matter what happen, I will still go down to sentosa to have my games. Although there is no sun, that doesnt mean that I cant play my vollyball. Right?

So, head towards to sentosa after my work at 1pm.

Meet Jason and his gf at bus interchange at 2.15. But both of them are late. kekeke...
Wow!! Fnally at 3.15pm we had reached sentosa!!! The weather is real good for playing vollyball. the weather is so cooling, air is fresh, the sand is soft and cold,sunset bay not crowded with people. Saw Lan Xing, Joyce, Ken,Andy, Cheryl and her bf->All the regulars there to play vollyball. Is a nice feeling to see them coming down despite of the heavy rain. Very glad..

Then have vollyball practising with Joyce who is Lan Xing wife. Nice game with her. Both of us practice for almost an hour->non-stop!! My T-shirt is all wet! Can you imagine that? In such a cooling weather and both of us perspire like "mad"??? But the feeling is SHIOK!!!

Played till 7.30pm. The sun is down, people are getting lesser and lesser. But that is a bad news for the ladies, it mean that the washroom will be packed of gers to BATHE!!!!! Which means there is going to be a long queue. Guess what I did? I took a hose and bathe inside the cubicle. Smart??

After bathing, Lanxing and wife, Cheryl and her bf and I went over to the marketbeside the bus-interchange to have our dinner. All of us are hungry. Our eyes almost "pop out" when we see the food reached the table. I have tom yum noddles. Nice, the soup is delicious. Spicy and sour. Real Nice, But I just dont know how to pen it down here. The serving size is also real BIG!! All thanks to Lanxing. Coz he is a regular customer of this stall->So we got special credits from him. Thanks!!! We have chit-chatting till 10 plus. Then all of us headed home.

Reach home around 11pm. Body starts to ache. Bad sign for me. It shows that my body need to rest and rupture. Otherwise I will be having real muscle ache for couple of days. Eyes tireeeedd... Brain need to shut down->Please press clt+alt-del ~~Tata~~

Celebrating Juli's aka J.Lo 22nd Bdae @ Club Momo

2005-07-29T04:17:00.000+08:00

Finally, the day had come..... It's Juli's bdae party. Really lookind forward to that. Coz, I hv regain my freedom that I have always wanted. Such as clubbing... There is no need for me to report my whereabouts to anyone. Isnt that good? I think so.. Oh come on, I am still so young, I just want to enjoy my life. Is there a problem?

So, rush home immediately after work. Doll up, preparing myself to Juli's Bdae party.

=Hey.. Finally the bdae ger had arrived=

=Bdae ger with me=

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=Natalie and Bdae Ger(Juli)=

=Anyone interested for any cakes??=

=Birthday Cake from Polar=

=Hey, wat r we doing? Are we drunk??=

=A group photo of us=

Nice clubing with them. They are my best clubbing buddies. I love u all. Really enjoy myself.

But I left early, as I had met Jason up for supper at Lavender Food Street (I guess is this place). Having supper with his parents. Sound weird?? I think so. But his parents are okie, great knowing them. Good chatter.

Reach home at ard 3am!!!! Suupppper tireeeedddd le... Love them so much..

Feeling Tired,lost in the world of mine.....

2005-07-28T17:08:00.000+08:00

The Waking

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.
I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close beside me, which are you?
God bless the ground! I shall walk softly there,
And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the Tree; but who can tell us how?
The lowly worm climbs up a winding stair;
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do
To you and me; so take the lovely air,
And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.
What falls away is always. And is near.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.
I learn by going where I have to go.

I liked this poem. How about you?

Real tired, but keep telling myself I have to FOCUS!! I have to FOCUS!!!!
But is hard, I just dont know why.
I am trying very hard.

Many things are ringing in my little mind.
Too many things to think and wonder about.
Job, work, family, church, my walking with God, my QT, friends, my beloved vollyball session, getting my degree and many more.....

Who am I to God?
Why I have to be born to this world? Must be a purpose for me to live. Right??
But I cant sense it.
Puzzle, really puzzle...

Celebrating Candice 21st Bdae

2005-07-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

Wow!! So fast, Candice 21 Bdae is coming le.. Time really flies passed us..

Meet up with Liting, Yufen, Jiunn Jye to go to Orchard to buy present for her. But onli left Jiunn Jye and me haven buy the present. A bit last minute rite? Keke.. Cndice wont mind de lar.. :) But the first thing we did was to fill up pur stomach first. Hmm... I think we hv Yoshinorya suited at Taka. Hee.. We are so lucky, no need to wait for tables. So so so long tt I had meals at there. Nice meal. We had a good chat there. Talking as way back to our sec sch days. Memorable memories... Happily chatting abt how we slept during accounts lesson, who's bitching in the class, how we had our recess and so on. The conversation just couldnt stop. I still loved my sec sch days. Oh well, who doesnt grow old?

After the meals, we went ahead to the toy store at Takashimaya, guess is at level 3. Jiunn Jye bought a solar plant and I had bought a key chain maker and a Melody Bag for her->is her Favourites cartoon character. I hope that she will like it. :) The queue for wrapping up the gifts is super long. While waiting we took some photos.

=Me and Jiunn Jye=

=Yufen and Liting=

After shopping, the time to go to Candice's house is way too early. So, we went over to Mos to have some chilling session. We had ordered the milk tea. Nice.. I liked!!! Chatted abt having drinks at Harry Bar saying we will go together the next time. Laughed all the way through over some lame jokes->Which I forgot!! Wahahahahaha... Just simply love them so much..

Wow!! Wow!! Time is passing, no time le.. Better stop chatting.. Now heading towards to Candice House!!!

1 Hour Later.......

=The very first photo tt we took once we reach her house=

Then wrote some notes in her well decorated book. Hee.. Is time for buffet!!! Yummy!!! The food is nice. The menu is Fried noodles, curry, sweet and sour fish, black and pepper pork with capsium, vegetables, tofu and eclair. too hungry le lar.. Not sure either, but the eclair is nice. The cream is smooth, the chocolate is not too sweet nor bitter, just nice. I ate quite alot of it. And it onli have 1 tray to serve. Heeee....

=The very first photo that we took with Bdae Ger=

=Nice photo? Seem like my Bdae rite??=

=Girls with lollipop=

=Sec Sch Friends=

=Hey, what Wen Qiang is doing?=

=Arent we cute?=

=Me with Candice=

=Ah Jeck and me taken when waiting to tk photo for Candice n Edmund=

=Edmund and Candice=

=Birthday ger with sec sch guys=

=Birthday ger with sec sch gers=

=Birthday Ger with Church frends, spotted me again??=

=Ting Ting and me lying on the sofa=

=Princess Tracy Tiffany=

=Group Photo=

Wow!!! wat a tiring day. Hope that Candice enjoyed herself. We are most welcome her to join us..->21st Age Club!!!!!

Went bck to sch to get Dipolma n sentosa, n gym.

2005-07-21T00:41:00.000+08:00

I thought I could sleep more, but I cant. I took leave to return bck to sch for my diploma. As, my sch is at the eastern side of Singapore, I nd ard 1 n a half hour to travel there. So, there isnt any much difference for me. Wake up ard 7.30am, prepare stuff to go sentosa & gym session at the later part of the day. But the weather is nt gd. Very cloudy n NO SUN at all!!! I got so mad.. Jux dun noe y..

Supposely to to meet Ivan n Joe at sch for lunch at 11am. But due to last minute I hv to meet Jason earlier at the gym. So, I didnt manage to meet them. I missed TP mensa canteen foods->Especially the vegetarian & salad bar. So nice n cheap n the serving is big!! Too bad!!!!

Then went ahead to Pargaroon to meet Jason at the gym. I was late for 10 minutes. But he said is okie. We went ahead to buy sushi as our lunch to bring into sentosa to eat. Guess wat? Today, I m playing beach vollyball with Chen Han Wei & Ben. Celebrities leh!! Oh no!!!

Reached there ard 12.30pm ba.. I guess so.. Then it started to drizzle. Oh no!! Where is my sun?? I almost wanted to cry out. But at the end, the weather turned out to be juz fine for playing vollyball n tanning. The sun is nt tt strong, so we will nt get burned. The volyball session tt i had with them is nice. They taught me alot of things, n I managed to learnt spiking. ~Tt's cool~ At least I see myself improving. Need to play more often.

After that, Jason n I were in Ben's car to go to fitness first for our gym session. So, on the way we r chatting n Ben is a very nice person. Really.. After a long day at sentosa, I m super hungry, but at the same time I cant eat too much before the workout, because I will hv stitch. So, Jason said tt we hv some beancurd before we start. After eating we rested a while before we head for our workout. Wow! I sweat alot. Nice workout, the facilities is gd, ppl there is nice. Left there at ard 9.30pm.

After the workout, Jason n I are damn hungry. Jason suggested that we go over to his dad reataurant to eat. So, we went took a cab there. WOw!!! Nice food.. The steamboat sliced fish is nice, the soup is very sweet. I jux couldnt stop myself from drinking. I think I drank quite alot. :) Then we even had chicken wings n fried sotong. The meal is fabulous. Really love the soup alot.. Muack!! Thumbs up!!!

Reach home at ard 11.45pm. Was tired, body was exhausted. Need to rest......

Wearing my new spectacles

2005-07-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

Just got to wear my new spectacles for my service at sunday. Is my very first tine wearing specs to church. So, everyone kinda got "shock" when they saw me with my specs. All of them said is a total different look.

Some of then asked me "Hey, r u tracy or tiffany?" I have two names after I been baptised. Hee...

At first, I couldnt get used to this new look. As this is my first time wearing this kind of frame. Need time to get used to it.

=Hey.. Tiffany is here!! keke..=

This new look can be my twin sister le. So, if one day u see a lady look like this. Then is my twin sister.. k?? Hee~~ But I still prefer me not wearing specs. Any comments???

Definition of Marriage

2005-07-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

Marriage?? It seems far far away from me. Hee~~ Found this in one of the website. I think is pretty interesting. :-) Wat's ur comment abt this??

Definition of Marriage:
Love isn't love unless it is expressed;
Caring isn't caring unless the other person knows;
Sharing isn't sharing unless the other person is included;
Loving, caring, and sharing can make for a very happy marriage.

Is it true? I am not in the best position to comment abt this. Let's see abt tt..

I had just return from my bintan trip. Is a nice place. Really liked it so much. Will update the pics soon.. ~~Tata~~

Tired and getting more tired... Eyes are so dry n painful...

2005-07-06T17:35:00.000+08:00

The whole day was in a lousy mood. New things to learn from my boss. Workload is getting as bit heavy. I cant let my eyes a rest. My eyes are tired and dry. Hardly can see clearly the screen of my computer. Oh no!!!! That's not good for the eyes. But what to do? My job. Working is no longer different from schooling. I have to grow, I cant possible stay stagnant rite? I dun wish and dont want that to happen...

Today collected my new spectales. Look weird on me, maybe is my first time doing a new frame and I cant get used to the new spectales. Hope everything will be fine. Looking forward to Friday, as I am not in town till sunday. I will be away for bintan trip!!!! Hope the weather will be good!!!!! :)

Went Bladding at East Coast

2005-06-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

Yesh!!! Finally finally I had the chance to blade. Do you know how excited I was? Oh no!! I just couldnt imagine I am bladding. It had been always my dream to learn bladding, is a nice sport and you can train your lower part of the body. Isnt tt great? Hee.. Jason and his friend Hendry, teach me how to blade. Wow!! At first I am real scared and terrified!!! Can you imagine that? I am afraid of falling, and of coz bleeding as well. But I have to thanks God that He gave me courage and strength to carry it out and of coz have to give thanks to Jason and Hendry. Without them, I think I will fall umpteen times. Both of them really take care of me. Felt so fortunte to have them around. They have patience to teach me. Coz I am the one who slows them down. Felt so embarressed about it. They keep on saying "Never mind, is okie. You will catch up one day right?" This sentence made me feel better. My mind feel at ease.

The weather at east coast is nice, sunny, windy and of coz nice scenenery. I really enjoyed myself. Although my butt hurts, is worth it.

So, after the bladding we went over to bishan to watch Initial D. It is a nice movie. I love it. Especially, the cars.. It just made me so excited. Seeing Jay Chou first time acting on the big scree. Is pretty cool. The cars are awesome!!! Story line is pretty good. The actors are handsome too. So worth it to watch. Hee.. :)

After the movie, Jason and I went over to the staty street at Raffles Place to have supper. The staty is nice, juicy and the sauce is superb!! Thumbs Up!!! The teh ta lei is also very nice. The queue for the tea is pretty long. Too bad Hendry cant join us for supper, coz he have to return home to report to his girlfriend. Hee.. No freedom.. :) We took some pics. Will update k? That's all folks. Is a long and tiring day for me. Need to rest. Tml have to go for service. Tata~~

I just hope that everything is back to normal

2005-06-24T16:16:00.000+08:00

Since the day that I had cried bitterly. It helped me somehow to look at things at a different perspective and also to take things easy. There is nothing in this world that could actually hurt or harm me. My Holy Father, the almighty one who is always be standing firm in whatever decision he made and no demons or devils be able to deceive Him. But we as humans, is hard to resist the tempation that we would face in our walks of our life! Isn't that so? Help me Father Lord. Help me to stand firm. Help me to be consistent in walking with you Lord. I need to gain respect form others and from you too Oh Father!!! Amen.

Guess my feelings are overflowing. My philosphy of realtionship is like buying a right pair of shoes. If the shoes doesn't suits you. It hurts, torn your feet and you may want to dump or buy another pair of shoe that attract you. Sounds familiar? I think so. When we are with the wrong guy in the relationship. The guy will hurt you and somehow you will get hurt and ended breaking up. But is all different of you buy the right pair of shoe. The shoe made you feel so comfort and you will feel like wearing it again and again till it started to have holes or it spolied. But you have the tendency to find another similar shoe as the previous one when you start shopping. I really don't know to trust anyone except for you Lord!!!!

Getting a little unwind and I find this!!

2005-06-22T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. My eyes are getting tired n tired.. Really falling asleep. So I take a little shot break to vist friends blog entry. One by one I scroll n read. Then when caome to ivan's blog... I find this!!!!!

=James n I @ Sentosa=

=Sandcastles= Nice rite???

=Is that me???=

After Sentosa, the whole grp of us went for dinner at Sizzler. My Favourite Restaurant!!! I like their salad Bar!! So nice so yummy. Wish to go bck n taste it!!! Is real good, you all should go & give it a try. Trust me!

=James n I @ Sizzler=

=Jodin, he is the one who played the Bdae song for me!!= So sweet!!!!

While we are eating, there is one lady who approach our table n looked for me. But the funniest thing is that I don't even know her. At that moment she was holding on to a bouquet of flowers and a box of chocolate. She claimed that she is on "mission" to pass me these presents. But by the way thanks!!!!

=Me holding on the Flowers= Still wonder who is the one?? Hmm.....

But I really enjoyed myself. Realy... Juz love them so so so much!!!!

Cry Bitterly n made him so angry with me!!!!

2005-06-20T15:30:00.000+08:00

Recently, I had been a naughty girl. I had broken the mutual trust between the both of us. He is affected badly. He is so angry that he even raised his voice over the phone. This is the very first time that he rasied his voice... Really... I cried almost every night to sleep. My pillows were wet, my eyes are puffy, not in any mood to do anything else. I am really sorry, sorry... Really wish that all these things had not happen..

I hardly can sleep well for the past couple of days. Keep tossing around my beds. His emotion, his voice, his everything is running through my head. Why?? Everything have to turn up in this way. I don't want!! Really don't want!!!! Stop torturing me!!! I jux cant stand it.... Argh~~~~~ I know I am in the wrong, Please forgive me. I am willing to change and everyone deserve a second chance rite? Maybe I am not worthy to be deserve for the second chance. When is this going to end?? I don't kniw. Really don't know. Please don't ask me why? I am too sad to said about this.

Clubbing @ Cocco Latte Birthday Bash

2005-06-18T04:48:00.000+08:00

Hey... It was a fun nite chilling out with my colleagues at Cocco Latte Birthday Bash. It was my very first time there. The place is nice. Due to it's 1st Year Birthday Bash, alot pepople were there. Keep on drinking bourbon coke!!! Coz it's free!!! But the free flow end at 10pm!!! [That's early rite??]

Me and Juliana dancing all the nite through!!!

Juli and me got snap by one of the camera man while we are resting on the sofa.

Very nice and tired!!! But can't go there often. No $$$ to take cab home!! Hee.. :) Get to know Natalie Girlfriend, Jane and her friends. WOW!! There are so goreous!!!

Aren't they beatiful???

Beatiful Ladies with the Boss!!

=Juli and Natalie on the dance floor=

=The Ginger Bread Man & Robort= Cute rite??

These are the Bosses of Cocco Latte!! Cool huh??

That's all Folks!! Will update more.. Love ya..

Forgetting my password!!!!!

2005-06-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

Guess what??? I had forgetten my TP email password. That's a big problem for me. As I need to register online in order to go back to sch to get my Diploma. Abscent-minded?? Or?? The side effect of geTting "OLD". One word to describe->Troublesome!!! As have to call up TP and the staff keep on transfering the calls to other person in charge. It provoke me!!! Arggghhhhhhh!!!!! No efficient at ALL!!!!! But what to do?? It's my fault for not remembering my password. But I really want to go back to my sch to collect my Diploma. Finally, my 3 yrs of studying at Temasek Polytechnic had ended. That's mean in the future, I will not have to wake up damn early just to travel to the east side of Singapore to study!!! Hurray!!!! Isn't tt great?? But I missed those schooling days. It's fun!! Most importantly I missed my friends that i known from sch. Really missed them so much!!!!

But life still have to carry on. There is no way that you could stay as a student for the rest of the life. When we grow older more responsibilty just keep on piling up and times just rush like a grasp of wind!! So fast is GONE!!!!!

MY MOTTO: LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!!

Tired & Getting More Tired......

2005-06-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

Hmm... It's going to reach end of the month, & my work load hv slightly increased. Oh no!! Isnt tt bad? But kinda think, my time passed faster. Hee.. Times really flies!! My colleague hv taken 3 wks off for her wedding. She has waited 5 yrs to get married to her husband. Wow!! Can't wait to see her on Sunday. She must be pretty. But while she is away, her task hv been divided among me and another colleague. I really hope tt no BIG mistake will be make by me. I really pray hard for tt!! Hoping tt everything will be smooth sailing till she is bck from Bali where she goes for her honeymoon.

Tomorrow is Cody's Big Day. The dinner is held at Orchard Hotel. I hv not been there yet, so quite looking forward to attend his wedding dinner. My pocket is going to burn bigger holes. As there will be alot of my colleagues are getting married. [AH BAOS]!!!!!! Hmm..... Juz wonder when is my turn to get married..??? But reallly don't know what to wear for tomorrow function..?? Headache!!! Argggghhhhhhhh....

My Fav Actress.. She's so Sweet & Pretty

2005-06-13T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hmm... My fav actress is Fann Wong. She's so sweet, pretty, elegant & mostly her flawless skin. *Envy* Hee... Saw her in real person, nice figure. :)

Being admiring her since my sec sch days. She's look so perfect. But there is always ppl who dun like abt her. Hmm... Maybe give up tanning?? Let me consider first k?? But... Hmm... I think the percentage is quite low lar.. Tanning is a must must for me!!!! Hee.. :)

Will Update more pics.. :) Muack!!!!

meet up with sec sch friends at marina to hv steamboat

2005-06-03T17:28:00.000+08:00

hmm... finally hv the time to meet up with them. Coz, now I m working n is real hard to find the "right" time to meet up! Our guys are coming in to NS soon n some are still schooling at poly. Juz wish them all the best. Quite looked forward to it as it was quote sometime tt I haven meet up with kiat soon n Jiunn Jye. They didnt change much neither. So did the gers. Although they are only 5 of us who turn up for the gathering, I strongly believe that in the future there will be more to come right? (Hope so???)

Oh no!! It smell so nice.. Perhaps I m too hungry. It had been abt 4 to 5 yrs since I went there. The food item changed. Now, there serve food. :) Good!! N at a reasonable price!!! But while we are eating, mosquitoes came to attack us!!!! I m the victim who get the most "bites" from them. Candice said tt maybe I m too tanned, tt's y all mosquitoes liked me!!! (Not Fair right??) Wow!! We have potong ice cream as our dessert. My fav flavor is red bean n I hv 2 of it. Real nice, super nice!! After all the food, all of us were bloated like a ballon!!! Jux couldnt walk probably!! (is bad for health) but the food is so nice, jux simply couldnt resist the tempation of it. Yummy!!!!

Since is still early, we went to Esplanade to hv some chit-chatting session n some photo taking session!!! (will upload here!!) but a bit lazy since I hv start to step into working world!! (Forgive me k?) Love them so much!!! See u all soon!~~~

Shopping for my Gown for Dinner & Dance

2005-05-01T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I feel so gd to go for service. As last wk, I had overslept n never attend for service. Is so gd to be in the house of Lord! Ya.. Really enjoy myself.. N God had proven me that YES, I should go ahead for the baptisim. He confirm me through the sermen when pastor touch on the topic on baptize. The words he said is the same as Ivy. So, after the service, Ivy, Huiwen n i go ahead to tk the form to get baptize. I felt so peacefully after making this decision. (Juz dun noe y). The most interesting thing is that in order to get baptize, I hv to find a sponsor for tt particular day. The first person tt came across my mind is Candice. So, I approached her n she said yes!! I m so happy.. Then sabrina told me tt those who become ur sponsor will become ur god-mother. I was laughing.. As I hv known candice for ages liao lar.. Since sec sch till now leh.. Juz cant believe wat God hv done for me. Rite? God hv shower alot of favor on me. I must learnt how to treasure, nt taking God for granted.

I have waited candice, rebecca, peixuan, celine n cindy, as they hv to attend the GB training course. Coz, I hv to ask a favor from candice lar.. That is to help me pick a dress for my company D & D. This is my first time attending this function, n I really dun hv time to shop for the dress. But I m glad tt candice cn make it. Thanks candice. Then, we went Orchard OG to shop first then procced to CK tang. Wow!! I m exhausted leh.. Alot of ppl on the street. Ws crowded. Didnt like crowded places. But I end up with no choices. we hv our dinner at yoshunya. s nice. I like it.. hee..

which one is cuter?? as compare to the pic below...

Rachel n me... Sweet rite?

guess wat pei xuan(gladys) is doing??

All of us were exhausted. But we really enjoed ourselves. Love ya.. N oh yes!! My new name is called Tiffany. That's all folks.. Muacks..

Bdae celebration for ivy n caroline at sweenens

2005-04-30T00:40:00.000+08:00

today is my very first time to sing as a back up singer for cell. At first, I am nervous as I m nt familar with the songs. But si er n althea give me encouagement n everything goes on smoothly. After cell, we r celebrating ivy n caroline bade at sweenens. Joannie bf, Jia Xuan was there too. Hmm.. any step to get to noe him better?

Both may babies

u all got see whose neck is the longest?? make a guess!!!

We ate alot of stuff. Ivy n I had share the main course, we even order banana crumble for our dessert. Yummy!! Thne gave a surprise for Ivy n caroline by ordering ice cream cake for them. They even get ballon!! Oh no!! Maybe they hv the kids look.. who knows rite?? heee.. I hope that everyone is happy n get to relax themselves. I hope so lar.. But it was great tt joannie bf came along. Hope tt he will come to outing more often.

Then after having the celebration, Ivy n I went to Mcdonalds to carry on our conservation on the opening up of cafe. I really want things to get started. Talked alot of staff!! It is my dream to hv my own cafe. But there is really alot of things to do n more n more research hv to be done. I think is time for us to really think abt it. Isnt tt so? Then suddenly Ivy asked me abt baptize... Wow!! I hv never thought of tt b4.. But I hv to thank God for giving me such an understanding parents. I m more fortunate as compare to Ivy n Celine. So, Ivy asked me to pray abt it. Ya.. IT had been 2 yrs tt I hv been attending church.. Is time to mke a decision. Hee..

First time dine at Olive Tree Restaurant

2005-04-25T17:19:00.000+08:00

guess wat? today i had my lunch together with the rest of the adminstrator n our boss. as our boss are treating for lunch for the secreatries wk. isnt tt wonderful. It was my first time celebrating this day. Juz wonder tt m I counted lucky to join this company? as next wk is my company D & D n I m invited to go too!!! wow... quite looking forward to it. tt all folks.. update more.. muacks..

Interesting Topic on Wat the criteria for the Rite guy??

2005-04-16T23:47:00.000+08:00

hmm... today cell lesson is on BGR-Relationship!! Interesting rite? This is wat I thought so. Coz Ivy had invitied a speaker to touch on this topic. So, I was looking forward to it. Suprisly, thi speaker is Huiling. Hey!!! I know her lor.. Hee.. :) But the lesson was interedting. The first qn she asked us to write was WHAT IS THE CRITERIA THAT YOU LOOK INTO A MAN??
My Criteria is the following:
-Tall(1.8m)
-Same religion with me(Christian)
-Homely Person
-Filal
-Outgoing
-Like sports
-Tender,Love,Care
-Confident
-Financial Stable
-Love Dogs!!!
-Know how to cook(Not instant noodles hor)
-Able to share household chores with me
-Like Kids

Wow!! So many criterias.. Oh no.. I think I hv to leave on the book-shelf. sad rite? Huiling also told us that we shoudlnt be looking for the rite person to come. we should be preparing ourselves to be the rite person when the rite person come. It sound so true. It means tt most of the ppl are wasting time to find the rite person. Instead they should prepare themselves to be the rite person when the rite one appear into their lives!!!!

So, wat r u waiting for???? Get prepared to be the rite person.. (",)

Wat a small world.

2005-04-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Guess wat had happened? Recently, had been busy with my woring life n trying very hard to adapt to the life style. It is very hard. n I m falling sick soon. But I will try my very best to prevent myself to get sick. k? Dun worry. For monday, I had met up with the Neons ppl for dinner at Pastamina. It was such a gd time tt we had together. I jux missed them so much!!! Everything start to change when I stared working. Sometimes, I will regret. As I had started working, I cant really enjoyed the stuff I like to do. E.g. Sun-tanning n playing beach vollyball n catching with with friends n family. But wat to do? Is our routine to work after grauduation? isnt tt so?

Then the most suprisely thing tt happened to me is tt I had met my primary sch fren at Singtel!!! Actually on my first day of work, I really wanted to look up to her to ask her if she is my primary dsch frend. But I hesitated. But she is nt my fred lar.. coz my fren tt i knew was her twin sister. They look so much alike tt I had mistaken my fren as her. She said tt I had changed alot tt she couldnt even remember me. Wat a small world after all. Rite? I m so happy. Today, both of us chat on the phone for almost 2 hrs. Wow!! amazing rite? Is like we had so much catching up to do. But the sad thing is that she is going over to Korea for her overseas studies. But at the other pt of view. I m happy foe her. Not everyone hv the chance to study at Korea. I jux pray tt for the remaining months tt we hv together, we will learn to cherish each other n spend the rest of the days meaningful!! I wish her all the best!!

Easter outreach

2005-03-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

Hey.. Today, the refreshment for the Easter outreach is prepared by my cell grp->T3. so quite excited abt it. :) then meet Reginald, cindy n one of her friend for lunch b4 we proceed to ntuc. The weather is nt gd. it rained, so we took a cab to german centre. guess wat? cindy n reginald "quarrel" over a packet of chicken rice. coz cindy put the chicken rice behind the boot. then reginald said "where got ppl put food items at the boot?" funny rite? quarrel over this small issue. Juz couldnt understand?? When we reached there, all of us are busy preparing the refreshment. No time le.. Soon after, it is the outreach!! But I felt so bad. coz some of my friends bring their non-believer friends along. But how abt me? Haiz... :( Thought of bringing my brother to come. But he rejected. I really hope that God will speak to him! I wan my family members to be save n hv eternal life with me at heavens!! :)

During the outreach, we had view on the "Passion of the Christ". I jux couldnt stop crying. seeing Jesus suffered in such a horrible n humailting way!!

this is the refreshment tt were made.

Ivy n me

our cell grp photo for yr 2005

After the outreach, reginald, wendy, cindy, angel n I went over to IMM for our dinner at Long John Silver. Then we went to one of the $2 value store to shop! Wow!! Alot of ppl. I guess must be saturday.

Cindy n I took at the shop. nice?

Wow! very cold in here!! Hee....

Wat a wonderful I had!! Isnt it? Tml is easter celebration. Lokk forward to tt!!

Dun noe wat to do now??

2005-03-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

Hi folks, long time never update wat I hv been doing recently. Bascially juz work n work n work. Nothing much to comment abt. Work life is like tt->from 0830 to 1800. Typical working office hours. But everything started to change when I went over for interview for Sales Consultants (Nutrition Focus) for Osim. It is an eye-candy for me. It caught my attention immediately. So, I went ahead of dialing n got myself an interview. During in the interview, nutrition was all in my mind, nothing else. Really!!

But when I meet up with Ivy to hv dinner at holland V [Essential n Brew]. The atmosphere is nice, n it is founded by a graduate from NTU. wow! Isnt tt wonderful. I oso wan. Coz my utlimate dream was to hv my own cafe. I will work hard to achieve this!! In the meantime of admiring all those things tt the graduate did for the cafe, alot of things was on my mind, qn being asked by Ivy kept on ringing in my head -->The very first qn tt she asked me was "wat happen to every sunday?" From this, it had shown tt I put work in first priority then God! Oh no!! wat m i suppose to do? The whole nite I didnt manage to sleep well. I noe this is serious. I dun wan to lose in the sight of God! I dun wan to back slide!! I really dun noe wat to do?

I told my family abt it. They give me support to pursue the things tt I wanted to do! It was my passion for nutrition tt took me this courage. Otherwise I would be travel all the way to TP to study this Dipolma. rite? At the crossroad now!!! I had been offered the job n I hv to quit the job at Singtel. But, when I accept this job offer, I hv to sacifice alot of thins like time spend with family n friends. Most importantly I would be able to go to church on a reguarly basis!!!!! Help God!!! I really dun noe wat to do? Is this the way tt u wan me to go? Is this my future? All sort of qn jux flash thro my mind! I cant decide. But I m young n really wanted to try out this job.

God, pls help me through this period! I really dun noe wat to do. I m at a loss. I dun wan to be a sheep. I wan to be a shepherd. I think now, I m at loss, totally loss!! I jux dun noe! But in the meantime, I m willing to work for my passion!! I think tt work with passion is essential. Isnt tt so? I dun wan to feel like dragging myself to work. Really nd help.. I really nd advice!!!!

First Day if work at Singtel

2005-03-18T01:17:00.000+08:00

So fast rite? Mon was jux having my last paper n today I m working... Juz couldnt believe it. The environment is good, colleagues are friendly. But there is a lot of stuff for me to learn and get used. All the temp staff are A levels students waiting to enter uni. Some of them came from sajc. seems familiar? as most of my church friends oso graduated from there.

I was facing the com for the whole day. This is my first time doing office work. Thus, not quite get used to it. My eyes are tired, cant concentrate for long n felt tired easily. Oh no.. I jux hope that god will be there to bless me through these 6 months at aingtel. I need strength to carry on this work assigment n guiding me through the rite path that I should tk at my crossroad of my life. Amen!!

Celebrating 21bdae at cafe cartel n watch HITCH

2005-03-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

Have been looking forward to this day. As we seldom meet up coz everyone is busy with their own stuff. They are my sec sch friends. Really missed them a lot. They hv been ard with me for 8 yrs. Wow!! Time really flies! This yr everyone of us hv to turn to 21 yrs old. I dun wan... sob.. :(

sinful cake. But is my fav->Bitter chocolate cake

Oreo cheesecake

Bluberry cheesecake.. felling hungry??

Taken after all the foods had been eaten up!

After eating, all of us were damn full. So, we decided to shop at PS. The first place tt we went over was spotlight. Candice was buying some stuff.

hats from spotlight. Pretty rite?

After all the shoppping, it was the time to watch the movie [Hitch]. I had waited this movie for ages man. The main lead is Will Smith->My fav actor. He is so funny. I laugh quite loud... That me ma.. rite? I like the show mAN. Really worth it. Then after watching movie, we went to OG coz Liting was going to buy clothes. We shopped till OG wanted to close le lar.. Reach hoome damn tired. Tnl still hv presentation at NUH. Hope everything will go on smoothly.

Finally my last day at TP!

2005-03-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

HmM.. Today i m having my last paper which is on Food Service Management (FSM). I jux couldnt believe tt my 3 yrs in TP is going to be an end, which mean in the future I would not nd to travel so far to reach sch n waking up so early! Huarry!! But I would defintely missed friends that I had known from TP. Cant bear to leave them.. Sob.. :(

So after having my last paper.. I went for some shopping at tampines mall n orchard.. I spent a lot.. Ohno.. My bank is going to broke!!

Then went over to my attachment company to pass the present to Sijia! Coz she is celebrating her 22nd bdae at NYDC.

My fav salad from NYDC. nice rite? Yummy!!

Bdae ger n me!!

4 pretty gers....

Taken with the monkey.. Isnt he cute? or me?

It was really damn full.. cant even walked out of that place. coz it was quite late. I took a cab home. Seldom spend money on cab but i think I m too tired for today. Hee..

The Day We present our FYP to the lecturer at Food Pilot Plant

2005-03-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

so nervous.. Hate memorzing notes n alot of stuff of the report.. Frecky nervous!!

Wearing formal to present the FYP. Nice?

N I hate wearing formal wear.. Coz is so hot!! N we hv to look gd in this stupid wear!! jux so nervous.. I m scared.. Glad that MY groupmates calm me down. Everything went on smoothly. But ewe hv to go down to NUH to give this poster presentation to the staff there!!! Oh no!! I think that presentation will be more nervous!!!!!!

My brother n I. Do we look alike?

Finnaly.. My brother willing to tk pic with me!! Had a hard time to persuade him to tk with me!! But do we look alike? I dun think so rite? keke... :)

Having my Digital cam with me!

2005-03-07T08:50:00.000+08:00

Huarry!!! Finally I had my very own camera le.. Is my 21 birthday present from my dearest mummy!! She is the BEST in this world!! Love you mum!!

James n I at mensa 2.. Aent we cute?

Baozhu n I at concourse.. TI TI dUI!!

My MP groupmates.. we are mad after handing out FYP!! wat a relief!!

I m glad that my FYP report had handed in.. OH man!! Our hard work really pay off! FINALLY!! Juz wish that I could pass thid module.. I DUN WAN TO STAY BACK BECOZ OF THIS!!

1st celebration of my 21 birthday

2005-03-05T02:18:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to today.

First of all, James, Han, Yiling n me went to sentosa. Finally man!! Coz really missed the sun n beach vollyball I had. In the afternoon, Ivan, Joe, Yisheng n Kai Sheng joined us at sentosa too. It was really fun but some incident had happened which is James got a keep cut on his rite calf. Oh no!! I felt so guilty abt it. Soory James. He got cut when we r chasing the ball (in the sea), his rite calf rbu against the rock.. oh NO!! Must be painful.. Must get well k?

we lwft at abt 630... Must go back to sentosa again.. KEKE.. huarry!! Finally is dinner time. Coz I had my celebration held at Sizzler!! The salad bar... my favourtie!!! thanks for all the gifts.. I really like it very much!!! Then suddenly, there is a ger whom I dun hv any idea of it.. came to approach me n give me a box of chocolate n a bouquet of flower. Oh no!!! I dun even now who is she n there is no name card or anything else with the present!! I dun want o accept.. But all my friends asked me to accept it first!! So funny!!! Wonder who is the one??? But I like it.. iS totally a surprise for me.. First time leh.. But at tt moment, I felt so embarassing... Reach home quite late.. How i wish tt i not nd to bathe!!!! But i have a wonderful day!!!!!!!! Thanks to all of u!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally Finshed my FYP report!!!!!!!

2005-03-02T12:26:00.000+08:00

Wow!! Have been waiting for this day.. Really felt stress up for these past few days. Didnt sleep well, panda eyes coming up le.. not pretty anymore..

this pic is taken straight after completing the report. Finally....

But nightmare haven over yet. As my poster presentation haven started yet n tml I have a quiz on FSM!! Oh no... So much things to do yet not enough time... Help!!! I need more time....

2005-02-28T23:10:00.000+08:00

This pic was taken at PDM lab interview. The cookie look like real one rite? But it couldnt be eaten coz we did mock up sample for our product! Hmm.. yummy!!

But after the interview, I m going to be stressful liao. Coz later I m meeting our supervisior for the final report of FYP. oh no! It was all at a messed! Our supervisior was quite disappointed with the kind of reprt we produced. Die le.. Really stress up!! Dun noe wat to do next.. This friday is the deadline le.. Now still at a messed!!! HELP HELP!!!!!!

Looked tanned enough? Pretty?? hee..

2005-02-22T13:08:00.000+08:00

This pic is taken b4 I tied up my hair.. n my new tanned.. Nice?

Hmm.. was quite nervous for my interview for csas. At the end, I was stuck at one the qn. My mind was too empty to think abt that qn.. But is over le, so dun think abt it further more. Was doing my final yr project.. real tired.. keep on telling myself that I m going to graduate soon le.. Juz tolerate for abt 3 to 4 wks more.. I will become a free bird!!!! All the best.. I jux pray that God will be there for me thro this hard time that I faced during this period of my life...

Going Back to My SIP company to visit them

2005-02-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Must be suprpised that y I had go abck to see them? Keke.. So long never see them le.. So miss them a bit lar.. Then it is still during the CNY seasons ma so Go there n visit them lor.. :) They were so suprised to see me!! It was a long time that the last time I has seen them.. It should be last yr september, where my attachment ends. Hmm.. Should be quite long already rite? keke.. :P

All of them had asked me whether I slim down le? Yes I did!! N I my tanned is darker n shine!! My colleagues were so envy of my lifestyle,which I noe when to enjoy myself n when to be serious with work. :) But in my policy, Live To My Life To the Fullest!!!!!

Then was afraid to greet the boss, coz he is always so fierce.. till now my impression of him still haven changed. But on the courtesy part, I still hv to greet him lar... rite? Time really flies man!! Went back to the company, all the memories that I had at the company flashes through my mind. Miss them so much!!!