As what captioned above, I felt sad, upset, unhappy for a very long long time. It seems that I could not even remember what is "Happiness" in life anymore. All things are not in place, my relationship with God is imbalance, my relationship with my family, friends and ultimately with my husband, Ivan is not on "good" terms. Guess it get worse when we start living together. It really get bad and bad each day. It hurts, it really do. But do anyone knows how I feel??? I do not think so. I'm not sure about God, but I do know that I'm terribly very upset. I'm used to be very cheerful, always bring laughter to my family and friends. Seeing them happy, I'm happy too. Now, I do not think I'm as optimtisc as before. That cheerful side of me had been disappear for too long that I could not even remember when it started. I'm just only 23 years old, what else you want me to do??? I'm slowly climbing the corporate ladder, studying part time, I'm still in the transaction period. And now, I'm married too. Have commitment to comply to, more responsibilities to come and so on. But please bear in mind that I'm still 23 years old. What else you want to do?? Come on... Girls at my age do not settle down so early. Mentally we are not there yet, most of my friends are either still in their university days or just about to step into working world. They do not have commitment to comply to. Furthermore, there's communication problem exists between me and Ivan, which I do not know how to solve it. Almost want to give up, is there anymore hope for me to look upon to??

I simply do not understand why people change its attitude immediately upon seeing your resignation letter?? Why is it so? My boss had been finding fault in me since last friday, which I could not accept. Hey, I did not do anything wrong to derserve such treatment from you, neither do you want to receive such treatmetn from someone else too. Simply NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to hand over my remaining job probably to my colleagues, why do you want to make my life so difficult? I do hope that people will change for the better not the other way round.

Good news for sharing.

Firstly, I got a job offer at Raffles Place which is next tower away from my hubby and the most splendid thing is the company is 5 minutes away from Singapore Accountancy Acadamy (SAA), City Campus, which I had enrolled in. Isn't it wonderful??? I'm blessed by Him.

Secondly, I have been going back to W.A.C for the past few weeks for service. It feels good. The fellowship that I had with my fellow sisters and brothers are wonderful. Everything seems the same to me, not much differences since I had left them for almost a year plus. Except there are few new faces which I did not see them before. Guess they came in when I left W.A.C.

Thirdly, I have "offically" moved into my new house at Sengkang. I love it so much. It is the biggest present that I have ever receive in my life. Thanks baby for making my dream home comes true. He has make a lot of effort to it. Oh well, we do quarrels a lot. But I guess is meaningful to relationship. Come to think about it, I can understand him better and appreciate him more after our quarrels. At times I had hurt him badly, which I feel very guilty about it. He is always forgiving towards me. *Love you Baby*

Forthly, I had passed my driving test!!! You guys can catch me on the roads if you can. Hehehehehe... Driving is not that easy for me, I have to familiarise all the expressways in Singapore which I'm trying to do now. Do you know how many expressways there are?? Like TPE,SLE,CTE,BKE,KJE,AYE,ECP!!!!! OMG!!!!!! When comes to map reading, I'm not the first person that you would look for. Can you guess how bad can that be.

Hello folks.. Guess is been quite a while since I last blogged. Too many commitments to be committed. I am just so tired.

Things that had keep me busy:
- My new house
- My wedding
- My studies as my exam is coming in June!!!
- My work as I just had an internal transfer. Oh well, I'm still doing accounts but this time round, I'm handling full set of accounts by myself!!! Furthermore, I did not have the experience at all. But I'm lucky to have a colleague who is willing to guide me along. Praise God for that.
- Car practical lessons as I'm having my test on the 04.06.07.

Too many things happen at the same time?? I guess so..

I'm feeling happy because my wedding is coming, which is like 3 more weeks?? Finally I have a house own by myself. Kitchen, living, dinning, study rooms which the colours, furnitures are chosen by me. It had also designed by the way that I like. I'm looking forward to that.. DEFINITELY!!!

I'm sad is because I have to leave my family after I get married. Especially for my mum and brother. I will miss them very much. No one on this whole earth is going to replace them, not even my husband. That kind of closeness that I have with my mum and brother, I just could not describe it here. I know what you all have to say, no one is indispensable and furthermore my husband will be around with me. But I just couldn't bear the lost of seeing them almost everyday. Although at times we quarrel over minor issues, we are fine after the next day. They are so dear to me. I think on my wedding day, I will be crying non-stop. Oh gosh, I just could not image that day...

After marriage, lots of responsibilities will start falls in. Life is not going to be the same once you get married. It is not that easy. It is no longer like when you are single, you do not have to worry about who's paying the utilities bill, who's doing the household chores, what's for dinner tonight and the list goes on and on. You do not have to worry much because we have a super woman to take care all of it. Guess who?? My mother!!! But now, all things are going to change when I get married. There will be no one to help me with all these things. You are on your own!!! And that's the worst part which I hate the most.

Life will change once I get married. But that's bit and pieces of life that we have to go through.

=4th Jan 2007=

Today, it is my baby 32nd birthday. Time flies... Still remember last year on this special day, it was the day that I met him again and get the chance to know him and eventually ending up as couple. It is definitely a memorable date for the both of us. And guess that's why he had choose to propose to me on this day. Yes... HE HAD PROPOSED ON HIS BIRTHDAY!!!! I was dumbfounded when I saw the ring. I'm too shocked to react. But I'm very happy!!! Can you know how excited I am??? He's really a very nice guy that I can rely on for my rest of my life. He's definitely a good man. I'm bessed to have him. Thanks God!!!

Then we went to HDB Hub @ Toa Payoh on the o6.01.07 for selecting our future home. Yes... Excitied and yet nervous at the same time. I felt excited was because I'm going to have the house of our own, nervous about the implications that we are going to face for the next few months. Rennovation for the house, buying of furniture, wedding, solemnsation and so on.. ... I'm worried that we cant cope with the upcoming stress that we would face. Our financial is tight. Real tight. Need to re-finance our spending.

I will be starting my ACCA courses on the 08.01.07. Is a new beginning for me and I will strive towards my goal. Bless me!! Amen!!!!

Once again, is a sesaon of giving and sharing of gifts to friends, love ones, colleagues and family. BUT!!!! The weather is not good for this wonderful festival. Singapore is flooded!!! In my whole 22 years of living in Singapore, it was definitely the first time that I had encounter flooding in Singapore.

Still remember that on Tuesday, I was going to Takashimaya to meet my boyfriend for buying presents for his colleagues. Guess what??? It was raining heavily. Despite the rain, you still managed to see a lot people heading down to town for last minute grapping of presents. The renovation of the underground had affected me very much. Due to the reconstruction, we had to travel up and took another escalator to Takashimaya. Never mind. It was pouring damn heavy that night. Wind was strong, damn cold... It got worst when people just don't want to move and get stuck there. I was so pissed off. I took out my umbrella and took the path outside. Guess I was faster that way. But I was drenched.

The rainfall for this month is over the limits. What happen Jesus?? Is it a sign from you to tell us that we, human had done something wrong which upset you??? Floods had caused traffic jams, trees had been washed down, residents of some area couldnt even return to their home, they had to live in Hotel (Temporary). But what causes all these??? If I did not remember wrongly, it doesn't rain heavily for the past few years. But why??? I couldnt understand.

Oh dear Father, what have we done wrong?? Is it a sign that you want to remind us of the real meaning of celebrating Christmas.

I just couldn't believe myself quarreling with my parents on my wedding stuffs. I didn't know that things will get so complicated. God, I need you by my side to empower me with strength and ability to continue to believe what I have believed in.

My parents are giving me pressure. I don't know how to handle it well. Firstly, my dad keeps saying that we should be going back to M'sia to hold our wedding dinner. Secondly, I need to offer incense to my ancestor for telling them I'm getting married blah blah blah... I cant do it man!!! I cant!!! Why must they force me to do the things that I can't even do it??? Thirdly, my relatives from M'sia are coming. I thought I want a simple wedding. That's all. But why in the end, it had evolved into such a big affair???